123 - Backup Plan

We've been discussing that truly internalizing emunah, that Hashem exclusively runs the world, can and perhaps should lead to us sometimes being uncomfortable about having to make our own efforts in our endeavors, otherwise known as hishtadlus. There is no black and white law in Torah literature which outlines subjectively how much hishtadlus each and every one of us is required to make and therefore, as discussed previously, what we ought to do is of course learn any Torah literature that might be available, as well as consult Torah leaders - otherwise known as da'as Torah, and ultimately, after everything is said and done, we ought to talk to Hashem with sincerity and ask him to guide us to get it right.  The verse in Tehillim teaches us, Hashem Tzilcha - Hashem is your shadow, and as the commentaries explain, just like the shadow one sees reflects the actual item being portrayed, so if one puts out five fingers, the shadow that reflects will be of five fingers, whereas if one puts out only one finger, the reflecting shadow will be of only one finger. And in the same way, the more emunah and bitachon we opt to live with, the more Hashem comes through for us. So in a sense, the more I grow in my emunah and bitachon endeavor, the less hishtadlus I might be required to make. I saw a nice analogy that helps illustrate this concept. There was once a beggar who did not have enough provisions even for his basic necessities and he would go from door to door asking people for donations. Usually people would donate relatively small amounts. He once approached a well-known wealthy individual and nevertheless received only a small sum. Then there was a second beggar who decided that he was not going to go from door to door asking for money, but rather he went straight to the wealthy individual's house. And upon arrival, he begged him, saying, "I'd really appreciate it and be grateful to you. And if you don't, I may starve and who knows what will become of me. Please help me." And the wealthy individual felt a tremendous responsibility to help the poor man and in the end gave a substantial sum to help him out. The reason the first poor man did not receive the substantial sum like the second poor man is because the wealthy individual realized that this poor man was going to many addresses and in the end, after much effort, although he was receiving small sums from everybody, he might make ends meet after collecting all of his small donations. Whereas the second poor individual made it very clear that he is not going anywhere else and therefore the wealthy individual felt responsible to help out significantly.  And in the same way, Hashem Tzilchah - Hashem is your shadow. When we approach Hashem for help, but in a sense have many backup plans and alternative addresses should Hashem not come through for us, we might be comparable to that first poor individual. And as taught, the way Hashem comes through for us is like a shadow; because we have not relied upon Him exclusively, He might not come through for us in a way where we are able to witness clearly the hand of divine providence. Whereas when we approach HaShem with sincerity, as if He is our only address, then HaShem, so to speak, responds like the wealthy individual who feels completely responsible, because this is the only address. "Hashem, Hishtadlus, is not an easy area to find the right balance. And I ask you to help me out to fulfill this mitzvah in the right way. At the same time, I ask you to help me in my endeavor to grow with sincere emunah and believe in you and live my life in a way that you are my only go-to address."