140 You DO you

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I'm Kappy. I'm Uncle Kreepe. I'm well-guess who is a big meal out of their name. I want the prestige, the power.

You just want to be a moderator on Discord. I must build. I have to build. No.

I need some legitimacy to be an acke. An acke's discord. You hear that, Akatan? Look, he says, yes.

I'm a co-host, I'm a matter. I'm in the chair. I don't know if I said that one. I got Streetcred.

That's right. I need that power. I just never pictured perverted podcast giving anybody Streetcred. That's true.

Just ever and now... How many girls do you have from your Streetcred, Senor? None. Well, okay.

Would you look at the same as his eyebrows? Does that look like Streetcred to you? His eyebrow terrible. Yes.

Candy was a listener. Candy was a listener before she got here. I wouldn't say it because I still had to be amazing and charming for her to want to talk to me. But it was pretty much just Bunny and Mio that roped her in.

That's pretty much it. Yeah, it's nothing to do to me. So I've quite got these. Still working on the groupies.

You know what? But now I pink eyebrow. So fuck it, right? They're pink and purple.

Just whatever. One is pink, the other's purple. Gonna be daddy. Whatever.

Bunny died her hair in amazing. It's like unicorn pink and purple. And she was all pumped up about it. And she went through hell trying to bleach her hair to get it right.

And then they burned her hair, gave her chemical burns, second degree burns all over her head. So today was the triumphant. Fuck it. My head's healed enough.

I'm gonna have my colored hair. And there's all this leftover. And they're like, so daddy. You know you have some obligations.

There's a certain amount of things. You gotta let us put you through. And so. Of course it was an anapolid.

Yeah. So I sat down and I'm like, okay, it's I know because I used to dye my hair when I actually had hair. And so I'm like, I know it's not gonna stay in the beard. And then he was like, can I do your eyebrows?

And I'm like, yeah, I might stay in the eyebrows. And literally. Bunny used about as much goop on my face and eyebrows as she used me a sporn on my thumb injury. Like literally she just.

Let's not forget your chest hair. Yeah. Can you see that? Oh, it's burnt.

Yeah. And she's getting her pants right now. Yes. Yes, literally.

I'm like, oh, maybe she'll just comb it in and literally she just takes a handful of it and goes. I'm like, oh, well, that's that's definitely on. You remind me of like a negative picture of Ronald McDonald. I am I'm an inverted Ronald McDonald picture in Photoshop.

Well, you know, surviving from my my need for daddy after care from last week. As some of you remember, last week, the great humiliation show where you were very gung-ho to do that. And suddenly something happened when the show was over. We well you went into a spiral.

I did. It's been a rough week. But we did the show anyway. I put a warning on it because I had for those of you that I've been listening to show 139.

We did a humiliation show, Bunny and I talked about, you know, all these horrible things to do and say to her because she really enjoys it. Bunny did a fantastic job, you know, talking on the show about what she likes about humiliation, about that she still has a lot of respect for herself and that it comes from a place of wanting to experience that, you know, because she's usually so confident. So I thought we did a really good job of prepping and then it was time to start the humiliation and I kind of go for it. You know, I like take the character and I go for it and I just maybe didn't prepare myself for the shit that was going to come out of my mouth saying to her.

And some of the stuff that I said was really rude. Was it talked about or not shaving her pussy and your disappointment. And so it kind of upped the game and on the way out she was like, that's the harshest you've ever talked to me. And instantly like all of my Christian guilt just came back because she did add.

It was also really hot and later she came. And so I heard it logically but you cannot, you can't get rid of voices. You have to allow those voices to be there. So it was really kind of crazy and I needed the next day.

I needed a little bit of the microphone. Yeah, you're going to have to take Kathy's microphone. Just lean on your hands and knees. That's a good girl.

Notice I'm being a little nicer. So I talked because I'm like, look, I know, I feel embarrassed because like I know money and you think things are totally hot and they just masturbate about it. It was so filthy and whatever. And I'm like there in a corner sucking my thumb as uber-dom, you know, having existential crisis is about who I am and what my identity is.

And is this going to progress? And is I become a scared lonely old man and I become invalid? Am I going to start getting meaner? Is this going to escalate?

Am I going to become a fucking rapist child molester? All of these fucking things. And I have to start thinking, if you don't look at these things as shitty and horrible and awkward as all of these conversations were this week, I kind of feel that if I didn't have those conversations with myself, there might be problems. Totally agree.

There might be some problems. So I talked to Bunny and I'm like, you know, I know this is awkward but daddy actually. I actually need after this. I felt very embarrassed and humiliated about it.

And you remember what you said to me? Yes. I do remember what I said. Right into the microphone.

Okay. So first, I said, well afterwards I had the best dream. Professor Snape was there and a whole bunch of people I knew and they planned a party to humiliate me on a cruise ship. It was great.

It was really hot and all the things that you said to me were there in my dream and I woke up really horny from that. And then I saw, so just so you know, I really enjoyed it. And then secondly, it was my first day back at school for the semester for my winter semester, spring semester. And before we did the humiliation scene on the show, we had spent a lot of time just having like one on one time and talking and you were giving me some affirmations about you're going to do awesome.

You know, you've seen the work that you've done these past semesters. You've gotten your grades up. It's been amazing. So I was going into school that morning and in my head, all that I was playing were the words that you had said previously where you got it.

You have a support system. You're awesome. You have this. You can see all the work you've done and you're going to be so good and not.

I didn't hear anything of what you said during the show of like, oh, I think you said something about like you're a dumber than a sack of bricks during the humiliation scene. But that's not what I heard. That didn't even cross my mind because I know that that's not something you believe, the things that I know to be true about myself and that you work to instill in me are the things we talked about before. And that's what sticks in my head and it's never the humiliation stuff.

That's just something that we play with for really dirty fun. But that's never what sticks with me. And then I was also saying I was really happy that you do think about these things and that you are careful with what you do and what you do and what you do and what you do and what you do them because that's what makes it safe. And that's why I trust you to do these things.

So far out. Thank you. That was actually probably one of the nicer things anyone's ever said to me in a relationship. And that's thank you.

Thank you very much. And it did. It was very wise. I was like, check her out.

We lost the Harry Potter. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And then she's like, and by the way, you know, if you are okay with doing this again. So I made her, you know, Bunny, you and I made her eat out of a dog dish last night.

And later on the floor and then she got all horny and it's so it's it is that balance. And I think as long as I stay in check and as long as we do communicate and I can't I can't argue the fact that I need validation that I'm doing okay. I'm not harming you because my whole life I wanted to be, you know, like the good guy, you know, except in my childhood where I tried to prove that I was, you know, the bad guy and but with women, I always had this and it was a long process of getting through that and allowing adults to be adults. And there was a lot of bad stuff.

But in general, you know, sometimes when you say really harsh things, even though it's a play and it's negotiated and everyone says things, you still have to look at who you are. Why do I enjoy this or do I enjoy this or what is this going to escalate in me? And because I'm a drug addict, everything's an escalation. So how am I going to handle myself?

You know, and we talked a lot about that. It's not necessary that you keep looking for darker and darker and deeper things. Sometimes you can just go lateral, you know, and you can stay at that level of intensity but use different things. It's not like everything has to be an escalation to eventually I have to be cutting off my girlfriend's hands and feet so they can get off, you know, because that's in.

You don't just know what I'm saying. I totally do know. And we, you know, you and I talked about it too. And the mere fact that you're asking yourself these questions speaks to a high degree of health, healthy mentality on your part.

It gives you the potential of health because it really does because I'm still going through it. There's a health in questioning. It's a health in the questioning. But it doesn't alleviate you from the responsibility of making decisions if you have to.

If there comes a point to where who I am is so challenged or my identity or I feel that I'm doing things in anger or I'm being aggressive in ways that aren't sexy or if there are things that are harming me or I feel that I'm progressing to a way that's going to harm my partners, then I have to say this isn't for me and I have to do that with the age play. I have to do that with a lot of things. I have to be responsible and say just because you've admitted that, hey, there could be some problems here. Well, guess what?

There could be some problems here. And how are you going to deal with it? How are you going to look at yourself and are you willing to step back if you have to, even though you may not look like the Uber DOM, even though you may not look tough or cool or badass or super sadistic, what if I actually need to not do certain things because I'm not emotionally mature enough to handle them or handle the outcomes of it. So it was heavy and I wanted to talk about that because I know a lot of people were like, fuck, dude.

But nothing came to you and said that. Yeah, some people heard it. The next morning I'm driving into work and I'm listening to the thing and the first thing I hear is your disclaimer and I'm off. He's going to start spiraling.

I didn't spiral. I was proactive. But it was something that I'm like, as much as you want to prepare for an episode like that, and for some people they may think, oh, that was real elementary. Some people may have been like, what the fuck?

If they're new to us, if we have new listeners, stuff like that, I don't normally give warnings. I think I have maybe one other show. But I needed that warning for me because I was challenged on how I looked at myself as a person and whether that's insecurity or whatever it is, that's what it is. And we're going to talk about that in one of the topics.

You have to do you. You have to do what your level is. Well, it's like, Lazz's button says we fuck up so you don't have to. I don't know if it was a fuck up, but yeah.

It was actually when shit goes bad. Nobody ever talks about that. There aren't too many classes where you hear it and you're certainly not going to read it anywhere. So to hear an actual person going through that kind of shit, I'm going to, that is invaluable bogey to somebody who's on the other end listening to this podcast.

Maybe it has gone through this or is in the middle of it or is just listening to it and then years later going to remember. It's okay to be you. It's okay to have feelings and kind of hope you do. If you don't, you might be set up for some problems.

I want to hear about the discord on discord. Yeah, what is the? Okay. It's not on.

It's creepy. Yeah. So discord is our new, our new chat. The other chat.

The other chat. The other five. The other five. But leval listeners have a, and apparently there's a little bit of discord on the discord.

What did you do? Here's what happens. Okay. There's a level of procedure that you can have.

You can be a moderator. You can get a certain level of pluses and minuses. You can have a little bit of an acutan and all of her might will not recognize me as someone who deserves a moderator. I don't want to do the work.

I just want the moderator status. I'll help. I'll do everything nice. I'll moderate.

I'll do the kindness, but I want that. I want that. Just want that title. I need a letter.

Your name goes from blue to purple. Purple. I understand. You know, laugh all you want, but you don't understand.

I understand when you're talking and someone's just like, I got smears purple all over my face. I want, I want the digital purple chest hair. Oh my god. I want that.

Ackitan, if you're listening, you just hold your ground girl. No. What you want to do? What?

Yeah, speak in the cat. Ackie, can I be purple too? Oh my god. And you know Ackie will make Ann Ann immediately.

Immediately. Just, it's going to be one and not the other. See, Ackitan knows you want it. You know what?

Isn't sitting in the guest host chair? Are you shitty, Dann? Are you shitty, Dann? Ann is totally just shitty dancing, right?

Like, Nana. That's fine. It's fine. It's cool.

Oh. Cretie Jill had his way. Somewhere or another. What else do we got?

Hang on, Ace. I am hunger. I'm ecstatic. I'm ecstatic.

I will need your ghost. What? What? Goats?

I will eat blood clots. No, that does. Hello, go, Tita. Oh, pooky.

I'm fucking years. I know. I want to go anymore. Thank you.

Sorry. Thank you for the distortion. And take two. And Ann.

Hey, younger. Hello. Wow, he really told me. He's held it in.

He just said he was going to leave back and scream. Leave back and scream. Hey, younger. Hello.

Ah, you know that's better. That was very, uh, watch your man. What are you up to the next few weeks? Ahh.

Aw, we've crashed. I forgot. They're not found. We talked about this at the beginning.

I know. Um, so I, I'm doing a lot of teaching over the next couple weeks or teaching is type things. This coming Saturday, I'm doing a super secret Taster booth at a club down by LAX. Um, while they have the normal type of tasters at this club, anarchy, um, with, um, the with vlogging and wax and stuff like that.

I'm doing a sub-topic. So I'm hopping. That's where you basically mini-branding. It's micro-branding.

It's micro-branding. So you have a little heated tip and then you poke it. And that can scar, right? Just can't.

A lot of people say it can't. But they can. And I will always argue that point. Yes.

Because I like to be. There's a chance it won't scar. But there's a chance it will. So a chance it will be a very tiny scar.

Yeah. I mean, because it's like little things and people put little patterns like a Hello Kitty or a moon or whatever that'll do. Kind of face-heart. Yeah.

And then they just poke around it. It's actually really cool. If you can see. I tried it.

I tried taking a class. And apparently that little fucking poker is real small. And I can't see it. So it's a little dangerous.

It's really, really kind of. I taught branding larger scale but number time. So it fits my little wheelhouse here. That's awesome.

And then next week we have MKV. And I'm teaching cigar play. Really? Are you going to do human ashtray?

Huh? Do you do human ashtray? I do. Really?

Is that next week? Yeah. That's next weekend. Not this weekend.

Oh, we can help. I can keep it on time. I can keep it on time. It's going to be where your 17th is threshold is MKV.

Mike, keep it on time. Lots of small classes. Lots of small classes. Lots of taster booths.

There will not be any permanent scarring taster booths. The permanent scarring taster booth. The permanent scarring. Come to my cigar class.

I am bringing a limited number of free cigars. Really? What? God damn it.

I'm going to be in Seattle. I think I had my last cigar I smoked was with hunger. Yes it was. And it was at someone's memorial.

I don't know. Was it Faunas? Was it Faunas? Was it Fauna or Phil?

No. Faunas. I think it was Fauna. I think you turned him down at Phil's.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Because Fauna had just started getting into cigars. That's right. So maybe I smoked the last cigar.

And then I said, no. That just tasted. I used to smoke them with my dad every once in a great while. And I'm just like, no.

It's just not my jam. But I'm going to start off with cigar service. And then kind of scroll back into general cigar type stuff. If people who have never smoked cigars want to try it out, come on out.

You're going to have a cigar and smoke it with us. And we're going to eventually on the show do a younger cigar topic, right? Sure. I just realized we've probably talked about cigars.

No. Other than I'm sure. There's a lot of it. I do.

Gets it. I carry a filing. Yeah, he does. He gets it.

He does. Ashes it on the tons. Sometimes. Sometimes.

I'll put that on. Cigar service both sides of that. Cigar play both sides. And I learned a lot about cigars and stuff.

That's really good. So we just need to talk before we get out here about Joe. Remember Joe? Remember I said some stuff that probably should have said, which prompted him to be very, very generous and make me feel very, very guilty.

Last week, you're like flaunted in my face of stuff that he gave you all this gorgeous little and I made a joke that, hey, you know, Unger and I are here part of the podcast too. How come we don't rate? I'm here sometimes too. Yeah, nobody's talking about you.

You can't even be a moderator on the official chat. You get no purple. And so Joe emails us back and says, Kathy, for you, I've got this and for Unger, I've got that and I felt like, crap, Joe, I'm so sorry. That's not what I meant.

I was just talking to you. It is what she meant, Joe. Thank you so much for your generosity. And she's just rolling on the ground going, oh my God, Joe's going to make me talk.

I did not throw a tent. It's going to be so awesome. No. That's Joe.

You don't believe him? Hey, you know what? The great thing about Joe is? Like you, because it's anything like you.

And if Joe, no, he's very told me that he even has a real job. Wow. Yeah, it's true. Joe's passed me a few times.

But if Joe enjoys making leather goods and seeing you enjoy it, then he can do that, right? Yeah, I'll put it in. I'll put her on it. In it.

What are you saying? I think that's cool. Well, thank you, Joe. You're just a very sweet man.

That's good. Got to get you keg right. All types on fat life. We can be the whole facade.

It's a big delight. For your piece of mine, please know that the author of every post we talk about has specifically granted his permission to do so. And this week we're talking about Naughty Redhead's post called We Are Open, but I'm allowed to be jealous, in which he says, the first time he's seen with someone else, I was a cranky be-otch for about a week. But I was fine after that.

The second time, meh. After reading some writings about getting to know your partner's partners, I realized, of course I'm jealous because these women are spending time with the man I love and I don't know their personalities or if they try to push boundaries or if they are the sweetest folks on earth. It's easy to dislike someone you don't know. Instead of giving my partner and his partners a chance to reassure me, I let dislike an annoyance hinder my mood.

So this coming year I make it a goal to have new boundaries set and more transparency in our relationship to be level headed and treat him with the utmost respect because that is what he deserves. Wow. But I'm still going to be a little jealous. Right in the fields, ladies and gentlemen.

Wait, there's an an end boob just hanging out. That was good. And you got to pick your moments, girl. No, no, that was a good moment.

That was a good moment. Thank you. Do you want to do that again? Just take your shirt off me.

I'm white and bottom with you. Thank you. Why are you having the gold, the gold, the pill, pill thing right now? Because you got your hand right there, I can't help but he wants to sit right up your hand.

So why this hits you kind of right in the nuts up? Yeah, I have some jealous partners. They make me aware of it and it makes it very difficult to seek partners sometimes. It's yeah.

Well, my question is, do they deal with that jealousy or do they simply tell you, here's my jealousy, do something with it, fix it, make it better. I think we're in the process of that. It's a little complicated. So I think that when they hand me those jealous feelings, the first reaction I have is we'll get over it.

Yeah. I totally get you. I can't. That's a feeling.

I can't do anything. Yeah. And I can't. You probably shouldn't say that though.

Yeah. You don't say. It's okay to feel that. Oh, I validate your feelings.

I can't say it conducive to not having a frying pan across the face. Oh, frying pan. Oh, right. Oh, right.

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Oh, right. Oh, right. Oh, right. So now I'm trying to figure out how to handle things.

I'm trying to take pictures. The best way I think to handle it is just to talk through it and to explain to them what exactly you're doing and why not necessarily the details of everything you're doing, but just exactly what maybe this person gives you, I think helps. My partners have a little problem sometimes with feeling like enough. Right.

That happens a lot. So I personally just, you know, reassure them as best as I can and... and carry on. Right.

I got. I got what? I will even read a line from. I wrote about, you know, obviously we write a bunch of notes and I never read them.

I just wanted to make sure that I said this how I felt it. So I wrote it. You cannot shame jealousy. You cannot muscle jealousy.

You have to accept that it is there and it will not be ignored. And your jealousy is your jealousy. It is not my jealousy. And because I've dealt with my own insecurities and jealousies and territorial pissings and things like that.

And then you try to shame it and you try to muscle it and you try to be like, oh, well, other people have comparison. Why can't I? And all of these different things. And at some point you just have to own it.

You have to say this is here. No matter what. Are there reasons for it? Like I don't feel validated.

I'm going to be abandoned. Everyone has their own different thing that their jealousy works a certain way. But jealousy is just a response. It is a response to things that are inside of you.

And maybe some people have a physiological propensity towards jealousy. But in general, it's really a nurture thing. It's really something where how you view yourself has an effect on your jealousy, how you view your partners, your level of trust and intimacy with your prime. I mean, there's a million things that can lead to it.

But ultimately, I think we need to stop trying to categorize all jealousy as one thing. Because everyone has their own jealousy. It's their own little fucking animal of chemicals that creates what it is. And when I started just accepting that there were certain things that I don't do well and certain levels of work that I have to do to get to this level in my relationships, I was always miserable.

And then I started just owning, these are the things that I can handle right now. These are the things that I'm willing to work on right now. And these are the things that I'm just going to be honest and say, you know what? I'm not going to work on that.

I'm not interested in working on that right now. And a lot of what I had to do was one of the things that I think, because I do a lot of put myself in my partner shoes. And if I do this, I try to, how do they feel in that type of stuff? And so a lot of what I enjoy in our relationship and what I try to work is that what we do with other partners is all inclusive.

I really stay away from relationships with other people that aren't really interested in you or bunny. Or we aren't all friends at least, and whatever, because maybe they're not into girls. Ultimately, we have to find what works for us. And creepy has to find what works with him.

And then ultimately, if it doesn't work, then you have to figure out. Yeah, I think what's happening is that my previous relationships, this came up a lot. So I think I have been seeking inward and are looking inward towards what I have been doing with jealousy, to see if there's anything that I'm doing to bring about these feelings. And I'm trying to work on time management and other shit like that to see if it's me that's generating jealousy.

Yeah, what's your part in it? Yeah, so I think, like you said, trying to figure out why they're coming at you with those jealousy feelings I think is very important, at least with handling that side of it. I'm going to say something that's probably very unpopular, but this is my take on it. Anytime that I've heard people say I am jealous.

And I actually, let me just interrupt myself here and say, I totally agree with you. Let Cathy speak. You can't shame it. You can't bully it.

It's there. Just accept that it's there. There is absolutely nothing wrong with it. But a lot of times, the overwhelming majority of times I talk to anybody and they say they're jealous.

They start with I feel invalidated. I feel inferior. I feel as if I don't matter. All those things start with I.

They're all yours. And my next question is always, OK, you feel invalidated, but is he making you feel invalidated? Because the two are not the same. So is he actually actively doing anything to make you feel invalidated?

Is he doing anything that makes you feel less than? No, he's just going out with somebody else, something that you both have agreed on. Well, then I'm sorry, but that's all you. That's all coming from a place of insecurity.

And that's your work to do, not someone else's. Now, a good partner will talk to you about it. He'll say, tell me what your triggers are. So at least avoid that.

Do not want to hear when she's texting me. Do you want me to tell you what happened? Or does it hurt you more to hear how our date went? I will do what it takes to help you.

But I'm not going to fix your jealousy. No, I have to get it. When there's nothing that I did to make it come about. You can't fix someone else's jealousy.

No. And as far as I'm concerned, I consider my jealousy a mental disorder. It is not something that it makes any sense. Yeah, usually it doesn't come from anything based on self-actualization or self-love.

Or it is, it is based on. If in asking myself any of those questions, I could come up with anything that in any way pointed towards something that my partner was doing. I would say, you're being an asshole. You're being rude.

You're making me feel this way because the way you spoke to me was inconsiderate. If I can't come to you and make statements like that, then the jealousy is all in my part. And I need to do some work on myself. Yeah.

Damn. Damn. I know that's harsh. But I just care of jealousy.

I have to be honest. And yes. Every kid to a cat he's my phone. Give it right into it.

Thanks, Kathy. I mean, I think it's kind of a sideline. But the biggest thing about jealousy is you can't turn it into aggression. Because that'll just always turn around back on you.

That'll make you look like the bad person. That'll make the person that you have the jealousy issues with. It'll just kind of spiral back on yourself and explode even more. Yeah.

Don't keep it in either if you can help it. Yeah. Don't keep it in but your partner isn't necessarily like, I have seen people disinferiate me, where they will put it back on you and say, OK, I feel jealous. Here it is.

What are you going to do about it? When 90% of it is something that you need to deal with. But instead, you're going to put it on someone else and say, fix this, or this is how I feel. There's nothing I can do about it.

You're right. There is nothing you can do about it. But there is stuff that you have to do about it. I'm doing way too much humiliation.

Because say that to me again. What is it? Just this is the first thought that came into my head. Ask me, what are you going to go fuck your friends?

I can't hang out with Bunny anymore. What the fuck? I can't. I just know the program to say shitty things.

Oh, that's evil. She likes cooking. Wow. You know what?

You and creepy shared that. You can both come back with a really. Fuck up things. That's it.

Quit. That's a really good quality. That's funny because Boogie felt sorry about the stuff he did to Bunny. And I would have been scared.

I felt scared. I didn't feel sorry because I didn't do anything wrong. I misunderstood. But I felt that I was pushing her.

Was I going into a darker place that I don't have control of? Yeah, you know, because you have the double thing. You have the white knight kind of thing that unfortunately you're upbringing and with your Catholic background. And on top of that, as you said, you're a addictive behavior where it can spiral if you continue in the wrong direction down the path.

So it's very amazing to me that you know both those things and know to keep an eye out for it. Yes. I think you got to deal with all sorts of things. Yeah, I remember.

Didn't you say that? That's why she's at my feet right now. She's like that. Is that why she's in the table?

And not have to listen to you talk. Yeah, I remember your story saying about how you went too far with me once. Right. And you kicked her in the ass or something.

And you felt you're just like, so what? I just I went that far. And I think that the growth from Pentonow is a. No, I know I felt bad about kicking her in the ass.

It was in the moment I didn't care. That was what the problem was. And it was a hard kick. It was just I knew that was her hard limit.

And I kicked her and she looked at me and she said, you kicked me. And I said, fucking use your fucking say word or whatever. Oh man. That was the moment where I'm like, and I'm and read.

And I'm. That's right. It was from the red your own scene. Yeah, I read it my own scene.

I have now. I remember that shit now. Yeah. Thanks for bringing that up because the first book he's a dick fucking half of the show wasn't enough.

Let's just keep that. Let's just keep those good memories going. All your problems? Do not compare to my fucking name not being purple and discord.

Oh my God. You know, I am. You need to get some perspective here, man. It's Christ.

Over the nail box. All right. Well, these are actually three very small emails that we get. You know, we get a bunch of tiny little things.

And these are kind of cute. Unfortunately, no one's calling the fucking phone number we gave out. What? Last called and sang some weird rape song or something.

I didn't even like it wasn't even coherent. It wasn't even a perverted podcast or anything to do. I was just like, I'm the guy. Put the girl in a van and you know.

No, what the fuck it was. That was it. I'm like we gave the number out 80 times. Do we even have it written down?

Is it not written on the wall or something? Not perfection. Oh my God. Unger, can you please look up the number again?

So like nobody called. Huh? 424-226-2037. Once again, it's 424-226-2037.

Now say Sunday, Sunday, Sunday. Sunday, Sunday, Sunday. Sunday, Sunday. Sunday, Sunday.

So we got some little emails. Yes. The first one is from Matthew who says, hi, I'm a relatively new fan of the show. But I really like listening to you guys in episode 123.

I heard Kathy say she loved getting responses from people around the world. So I checked. I'm in Australia, which is as far away from LA as physically possible. I think pretty much.

I am on the entire opposite side of the world. Hello, keep up the good work. That's very nice. Princess Ducky's.

Good day. Oh, Jesus. Good day. Oh my God.

You had to jump on his fucking shit. I have to put him down, man. He's getting a little too whitey-toy. I'm sorry.

What? I'll put your readings on this fucking. Yes. Cool.

I don't know. She said, oh, she's in there. She says, Kathy is after Thanksgiving, I am officially a P.P. Zam.

Oh my gosh. She says, zombie apocalypse. She says, love you guys. Love the show.

Love the chat. Love the Unger and you and Michelle and Hollywood daddy and bunny and everyone else. Fuck. Fuck Boogie.