Let's sing a song while we're waiting. You want to sing a song, Kathy? Yes. Here's sing a song.
All the same and real. Drag down the bottom of the by. Always getting stuck on a long road. This is not an animal day.
Yay! I don't know why. That makes me so sad that you guys all like that song. I don't even write songs for 30 fucking years.
But you're never happy. We like this song. That's the hit. That's the hit.
God damn it. That's your symmetry mind. That's my, yeah, that's my, yeah, that's my, that's my, that's my Hey Jude. My stairway to fucking heaven.
And we get your balls to say. She's by. I'm of the by. I'm of the by.
I'm stairway to heaven. No! If there's a bustle in your hedgehog. Hey!
Fucking fuck me. The following show is for mature audiences only. Listen, her discretion is advised. And if you don't like it, please go fuck yourself.
Do you feel your sex life is quite lame? Oh, oh my god! Scared that your desires might be strange. Oh, oh my god!
Come and join the Kinky World of Play. Oh, oh my god. Very energetic. Hello and welcome to the Pururupot Gasser Show.
We explore the Avengers of the Kinky lifestyle sex and perversion. Recording live from the threshold love, in North Hollywood, California, in front of our perverted studio audience. Hello, lovely pervert. I'm Kathy.
I am Papparaman. And I am Count Boogie adjusting knobs that I don't even know where they work anymore. We need a douching. We need a complete.
Soundboard douching. We need a soundboard douching. Look, I mean, this thing's caked in like 18 layers of dust. It's just holding it together.
There's initials on here that I put on two years, three years ago. And I don't know what they are. There's a flying fucking flying, Kathy, by the seat of our pants. Patreon.com.
We do have some new donors. Very, very excited about that. Oh, my god. Yeah, it's that day.
Look at, look at Bunny and Mew. Look at them. Look at them all. Look at them all.
Look at them all. Look at them. Look at them. Look at them.
Daddy, Daddy took a very business today. Take care of business. Daddy, take care of Daddy business today. Yeah, look at her.
Right. Yeah. Fucking crushed up Viagra. Shotted in my veins like a fucking ounce of heroin.
Wait, how long ago? Was your dick still hard? Yeah, you want to feel it? No, I'll take your work.
Bunny, Mew is still hard. Yeah. Yeah, but Kathy would know that because Kathy gave me a foot job. Did not.
I kicked you in the nuts. No, no, no. No, no, no. It was a gentle top of the foot.
I literally took my toes and went where are they? Did you kick me? Then I whacked and then I whacked you. There was no whacking.
Yes, it was. You literally went all the way back up. There was no whacking. And then after that, okay, I did protect myself because I knew Kathy's a kicker.
Yeah. But then what was it? Was it Mew? Yeah, it was Mew that grabbed her foot and then started kind of bouncing it up and down on my nuts.
And then all of a sudden, and this was in the boot black station, a fucking threshold. And I'm like, you know, okay, this isn't going to be supposed to play out here, so I'm just not going to enjoy this and then it won't be play, right? And so, but all of a sudden, I'm like, hey, can't get a little foot jump from Kathy. It's pretty good.
Just my fucking junk bouncing on your shoelaces. I feel a little bondage going on. I was wearing heels. Whatever you were wearing.
That was domination, by the way. That was domination. Well, you know, there you go, Mistress. You were topping my junk.
I did kick you in the nuts. That was CBT. I did. I actually was looking really nice and dapper too.
She looked pretty. She looked very very. I was nice. Nice and flashing, sparkling.
Was not. Had a little swagger. I'm coming to nails. Wasn't looking pretty.
Shut up. You can be pretty tough. I can be. Okay.
Nice. That's a volume issue there. Shut up. I'll just yell louder.
You fucking cackling hand. Jesus Christ. You're just egging me on. I'm just going to yell louder.
Isn't it bad enough that you're making me sit in news come? Look at that. You guys kind of covered this fucking chair next time you sit on it. Okay.
So, we're going to say something. Well, she's a very happy girl. She's a happy girl. She's a towel too much to ask.
Well, apparently it is. I have a brain of the mic up now. She could sit on it. It would have a fucking mewjull.
By the way, mewj is a new word that's mew. Mew, mewj. That's what I call her. I just call her.
I just call her. Squeakus. Wicca. Well, she's naked all the time.
And so that's the chair that we roll across the love lab when we watch anime together. Because that's when she sits in. She does the back. And then she sits in half the time.
I remember. You know, can you put like a blanket down, you know, because Kathy sits on that chair. And then you're watching anime and I'm like, oh, she gets up and it's all squeakus. And I'm like, I'm going to hear about that.
And literally we've been doing it for like a year. You hadn't really noticed. I'm going to start bringing my own pillow and just sit on it because you know, I would say that's probably not a bad idea. Give me an item UTI's girl gets.
Oh, oh, you are a me. You are a mean. It's not her fault. It's your fault for all the anal you make her do.
That's probably true. Look at that. Yeah, she's pouting. She's not.
She's pouting at you. She's not even. She knows all right. See now you're trying to dig out of it.
You're a meanie pants. You are you are literally Kathy. This is going to be that show. This is the show.
It's going to be that show. That show. T-H-A-T show. That's what this is going to be.
Okay. And with that in mind, don't you guys have something to do. We do. But aren't we going to talk about all the fun sex we've had.
Literally the only thing on potato mayhem is what you guys are about to do. I had a bunch of stuff, but he just didn't write it down. That doesn't help us at all. You are correct.
You're not going to remember. You're an old man and your memory is going. Well, you are correct. But I got distracted because both my girls like mutes of the mutes.
There's a lot of heat today. The Viagra is working. A lot of heat now from Kathy's burn. A little arm in here.
You're a meanie. So no, it's been an event. Okay. Let's just get into it.
Let's just get into it. Apparently this is going to be the all boogie inspired show. This is all boogie all the time. Today.
Yeah. Okay. It's going to be a fun ride. It's going to be a fun ride today.
I think there's some really good positive things. I think there's an opportunity for some legitimate learning. But here's the first thing. Pop your room.
Yes. So I asked you to come down here because you are not only the infamous Pop your room. I hope for a bird of a cork. But you are also a board member.
Wow. That's my opinion. You are listening to the video. You are not members.
Listen to the video. I hope not. They will today. A long time.
Listen. So you are on the board of directors of threshold and responsible for this. I am responsible for the club running and safety. And then of course all the volunteers under.
We all work together at this nonprofit. I wanted to talk about something today because it was some real stuff that we have to talk about. Of course. But I want to preface this by saying I want this to be a caution and not a fear but a realistic thing.
But first I got to say that I am so proud of this board. I am so very proud of this board. I had my doubts. When you guys first started.
I think we all did. But you guys have really kept to what my personal mission of threshold is. Which is no matter what. No matter if we lose this club tomorrow.
Because of the actions that we take today to protect people and to provide safety. That you guys are a part of the mission of fearlessly doing what is right as opposed to what makes money or whatever. So what I am about to say. And some people know about it who have been coming to threshold is going to lose us some money right now.
And you guys know that. But we kind of have to be honest with what is going on at our club. We have a lot of listeners that go to threshold for pervert podcast. So we wanted to share it here.
And then of course we will be announcing it to members. And last few months and I mentioned it briefly on the show we have a very large problem with a number of homeless motor homes and not just the nice people that you see in the media that are down on their luck. But these are people that use a lot of drugs and don't give a fuck about us. And they are trash and you are in and trash and pit bulls and everything.
Now line our entire street. They were kicked out of another street close by. All the police know who they are. And they just moved into our street because we don't yet have parking restrictions on our street.
And so our street is now covered with litter and they literally just line the sidewalks. And for those people that park on the street and not in our parking lot, that is now not as safe. And it sucks to say that. Despite the fact that for our parties we have security in the parking lot we do things.
But we have to announce. We can't not tell people who are planning to come to threshold. If you park on the street you have to walk through a homeless people that are not all the nicest people in the world. So far we haven't had any major problems.
We had a guy climb on the roof the other day to try to sleep on our roof and the police had to come and get them. But it is now a problem and it is now a safety concern. And we want to let all the people that come to threshold know if you come to our club try to park in the parking lot. If there is no parking lot try to make sure you have someone they walk with.
Most of them are not going to do anything because they know the police are going to come instantly and fuck with them. So but it doesn't mean that there is not safety concerns or something. Some of them have dogs, pit bulls. And so we are working diligently.
The police are all over this. Everyone in the building, all the buildings on the street. We are all banding together to make the changes that are needed legally. We can't just, I mean it sounds like just telling to go away.
All the suggestions and everything. There is bureaucracy. There is laws. Fucking snowflakes of past laws that have made it legal for people to literally park in front of your business and scare your customers.
And there is very little that you can do about it except a certain, a very certain path of specific things. So I wanted you to come tonight just to verify so I am not just babbling you know on my own about this. Yeah, no of course. I mean we definitely care about the safety of our members.
You know this place has always been a little bit sketchy because of the way it looks and a few homeless here and there but now it is an actual, it feels like an actual threat now. Yeah. And even though nothing has happened and hopefully nothing will happen it is still something we should address. Yeah.
And I personally, as I mentioned many business people will ignore it. Or not doing it. It doesn't matter what we say right now. Right.
There are people right now that are like I think I am just going to pass on threat. There is 15 other clubs. And some of those are sketchy too. But you know the fact that we are saying this you have to be careful walking down our street.
Some people are literally and no one is going to blame you. No. I wouldn't blame you. You know there are, I wouldn't want my girls to walk down that street at two in the morning and that is just the way it is.
So now saying that what are the things you can do. If you have a club say you are club wherever you are in the world for the podcast land. You know these are things that are real. There are people on the streets.
You are walking late at night. Sometimes you are by yourself. So it is just the same kinds of things. If you don't know that there is problems on your street it is always good to have somebody with you.
Have a game plan. Have somebody walk you your car. We walk men and women to their cars. There is no, it is not necessarily gender biased on that.
So it is just finding those things. If you do have those problems on your street with your dungeon or the club that you are going to just know that you have to get the whole street together. It is a pain in the ass. Most of the businesses are going to have to spend money.
We have to put a barbed wire to keep them off the roof and stuff like that. And there is stuff that has to be done. But ultimately the safety has to come first. Yeah.
People don't want to come out for that. I don't think we get it fixed. It is going to stop at the same time. We are not going to sit by and not do anything regardless.
Even if our attendance falls for a few months we still want those people who still come to feel safe. Or to know that we are doing something about it. And we are not just hiding our heads and trying to keep the doors open. No, we want safety.
We want people to feel safe. Many have insulted our club because we are the quote unquote safe dungeon. It is like well, yeah. I would rather be that.
I don't care. We can always find a new place to be kinky. But if you are at a place like we, you know, Kathy and I sit every fucking twice a month in orientation and tell people at our dungeon and I am sure a lot of dungeons around the world have the same mission. We tell our people we have your back and we want you to have the best experience.
And there is no 100%. There is no guarantee. But you can be sure that when you have an entire organization that is dedicated to trying whatever they can to have rules in place to protect people. And maybe some of those rules are infringed on some people's freedoms and they think it is stupid.
But you know what? Fuck you. This is how we do it. And I applaud dungeons like Threshold that are willing to take those extra steps to try to make sure that people have fun.
Yes. And we have always been proactive in ensuring as best we can the safety of our members and the attendees to our parties when we started having just a few minor incidents. Our amazing facilities are amazing board. First of all, they approved it and our amazing facilities guy went out there and just plastered the building with lights so that it's floodlights everywhere.
Yeah. So there aren't any dark corners. Exactly. Now we got like a lot of things.
So now it's too long and dark on heartless nights. And then when it became even more important we we spend money to hire security to sit in the parking lot every fucking party unless you know with a few instances we haven't been able to find somebody to do it. But somebody sits out in that parking lot. The entire party doesn't get to get Tom does not go.
We've been trying to get that guy a blow job for sitting in that parking lot. Look, Tom's not here right now because he's working. Tom doesn't get to come in the club because he's working and we're not supposed to have sex in the parking lot so I'm not going to say go in the parking lot and give Tom blow job. But if you, he likes women, you know, I'm just saying.
Tom, don't do that. No. Because people are going to come up to his country. But he said, you know what, if Tom's anything like me, he will appreciate.
Because he can't come in and be appreciated for all the shit he does. Literally, he misses every party and he doesn't get paid that much to be out there. Everybody gets paid threshold. Hey, that cuts into our profits and it is something we do gladly in order.
And we're going to have to do more of that now because we have to do more safety stuff and that stuff's going to cost money. Yeah. And that's what we have to do. That's what we have to do.
Right. There are people in LA who call threshold safety crazy and both right. We are. But frankly, I'm glad to be, as you said, in a place that values, that's members and it's attendee so much that we're willing to make the statement.
Yeah. The board is willing to make the statement. I'll talk to several people that say they come here for that reason. Yeah.
Right. And I'm like good because that's what we want. That's why we have so many dungeon monitors. Everybody, when it's more crowded, we pile on even more and when it's even more crowded, we have security at the door.
We're trying. Yeah. We really want you to have a good experience. Of course.
And the dungeons that do this and there's lots of them in the world that they put that effort. That's where the people are going to go to feel comfortable. The people that are experts in all the edgy, dangerous plays, that's great, good for you. I hope you find a place that you can do what you do.
But the fact that we have the rules in place that we do, our club's packed. I mean, it may not be packed for the next few months until we figure all this shit out. But it's packed. Yeah.
And the reason is because people, the shit, I mean, you can fist it threshold. You can do all sorts of crazy hook pulls and blood play and fire play. And it's like, you know, we're allowed to do a lot. The things that aren't allowed aren't that big of a deal.
Compared to what is allowed. It's like, all right. Yeah. I want to do that.
But you know, you got to come with all this other stuff I can do. Why am I going to grunt about it? And the people that bitch about our rules like that, we don't allow breath play or something like that, you know what? None of them have ever done.
This is a fact. I'm letting the entire rule know, no, no. Not a single person that is bitched about some of the things that we aren't allowed to do has offered to pay the $5, $6,000 a year in insurance, which is crazy. That is crazy to me.
And you don't like that. We don't do certain things that are dangerous or illegal. But you're not willing to pay our rent in our insurance. That's insane.
That is crazy. Like why wouldn't they just offer to do that? Because they want to bitch. I mean, if you're that strong about your bitch, why don't you just fucking spend 10 years and look for a place that will actually let you have a BDSM club and then find an insurer that will actually ensure your fucking BDSM club and then get the police that are in the local area to know that you have a BDSM club and actually respect the fact that you do it in a safer way and try not to do things that are illegal.
Why don't you just pay for everything? I am so amazed at no point in that a single one, Kathy. Perhaps it's easier to bitch? I don't know.
I don't know. I'm just saying. Fucking crazy. Yeah.
It's crazy. Take left stuff for the type. I guess. This is crazy.
But you know what? So there's the scene. We let you guys if you're in the area and if you aren't in our area but you have these types of problems, just know you're going to have to put in some work and do your due diligence. People are not just going to leave just because you asked them to leave or they don't care.
Especially if they're on drugs, they don't give a fuck that they're ruining your businesses. Oh and I've had some really bad thoughts of how I can get rid of them. And not at all are legal. And that works.
And all my methods will work. No. My methods will work. Believe me, we all have the thoughts.
I mean, but you know, not consensual fireplace really frowned upon. But ultimately, and we don't want to get into that and make jokes about that because that's actually bullshit. They are fucking humans. Yes.
Even though I fucking hate them. They're fucking humans and they're sick. So and I've been sick and so I get it and I despise what the thing is. But of course I would love to see people get help.
But if they don't want fucking help and they just want to attack and be shitty, then you get what you fucking get. You know, so there's a thing that's what's going on. We'll lose some business. We'll probably hear some people bitch but it's nothing you wouldn't have found out anyway.
And yeah, like so we definitely working to figure out some solution to the whole team is together. The cops, everyone just, you know, it's on. I'm even looking into some police connections I have to see who can help me out. Maybe see some strings.
Yeah. But that might take a bit. I don't know how to find out who can help me and because I would kind of have to out myself a little bit. So that's also.
Oh, that's all. I mean, we have all the. I've been online. I've been online.
All city councils, city council field deputies and sergeants of this side of the tracks and that side of the track. So the people, everyone knows what's going on. They know who these people are. They identified every single one of them.
So this person, this person, you know, does this one look like this? Yeah. Yeah. We all know them and this group goes around and there's like 30 or 40 of them and they don't give a fuck and they will piss and shit in your curb and they don't care.
So we're going to do the best we can. And that's the last thing I'll say for for any members who to come by. If you do see something called the police, make a report that way we have more ammunition. Yeah, the more police reports we have.
So if you see any of them, try to report a clinician. So we have more to fight with. So anything you see that seems sketchy or not, well, say something, not just to us but call the police say something's going on so that there's more reports and that will help us as well. Yeah.
And there's nothing I mean, I've called the police fucking 800 times. Well, it's not 800 times. But I've called a number of times since I've been here. I'm a big giant man.
I don't care. It's sketchy when it's sketchy and so you just got to do what you can legally because you don't want to get in trouble or something to leave. We want to do this right way. All right.
That's my thoughts. Those are the thoughts. Very awkward conversation. 20 minutes on.
That's something fun. Woo. That fight helps you do with mental release. That's the logic on the motor brake.
Now we're better protected from a King shaming world. That life. I was going to say for your piece of mine, but there's no piece of mine. And on top of that, this next post is by our very own Count Boogie who of course is in the permission.
It's the all boogie show. We're going to change the fat life to your thing. Great. It's good.
I think the perverted mailbox maybe about you. Did you email yourself a complaint? That's called therapy by the way. We'll be talking about that too later.
Boogie wrote a post called Pain Math. Is it worth loving again? Now you know. Oh, we should add music.
All right. This is what Boogie says. One music. Yeah.
That is good. Peace to go. You'll him make your being his heart. I love that one.
The classics is good. Are you ready? I'm reading this and you're not. So I butchered yours just like I butchered everybody else.
Here we go. Pain Math is the best math I will explain. The pain of ending a relationship for whatever reason will bring about about a month of suffering. So if the relationship lasts a few months, then I'm ahead.
Avoiding love makes me alone and bored all the time. So I'm actually living in failure to avoid the potential of feeling good for at least a while. Now this only works with PASA. People are shitty acceptance.
I know that people can be shitty. So when a lover does something shitty, I don't take it personal because fucking PASA. She killed me. I swear to God.
I remember writing this. Apply these concepts and jump the fuck back in. Even if it's just for a while, my latest poly relationships are three and a half years with one and one and a half years with the other. So I am smashing pain math.
If they both turn to shit, who cares? I beat the system. If I would have lived in fear of pain, I'd still be playing video games by myself. I have had numerous lovers in the past few years and they, some of them have left for many different reasons.
And yes, it hurts a little. Fessent love we shared for a while in this very, very, very impermanent universe was well worth it. I've done pain my whole life. Pain is the same lame, droning note, and it always passes.
It's just life. Don't let others fuck up your fun. You know when you read it actually sounds okay. I thought you'd remember more of what it was like because I really chopped this up.
No. I don't remember the PASA thing. People are shitty acceptance. But it's true if you just accept that people are shitty.
You are going to be so less but hurt. Yeah. Because it's like for some reason we go through life and we think, I don't know why. It's not the logical.
I think everyone knows people are perfect and people do shitty things and we have this whole history of negative programming in our parents and religion and all that shit. But we just kind of still hold that thing in our head that somehow it's personal when other people are shitty and that it's not about them and that it's about us and that's our insecurities. So when you just understand that in general, expect that people are going to be humans and part of being human is to make mistakes and to be a dick and to maybe do things that are selfish or inconsiderate at moments and hopefully you'll find people that are working on that, that are actively working on that or have managed to overcome a lot of that shitty behavior and those are the people that you can hang out with. But if you try to spend your whole life trying to find people that aren't going to be shitty from now and now time to time, you're not going to ever experience anything.
It's very true. I was reading this, sometimes when I control through FET Life, I would go through Kinky and Popular Defined Post to read on the show. But sometimes I'll also go through the perverted podcast feed to see what our listeners are reading. Somebody had either loved your post or commented on it and I went to look at it.
And as usual, the pieces that really speak to me are the ones that are talking about something that I'm personally going through at the time. And creative explorer and I are going through some rocky times and there's some things we need to iron out and they've all conspired to happen at the same time at probably the worst time and so it's blowing everything out of proportion and it's taken me about a week and a half of sitting there and pulling the shit apart, figuring out how much is a legitimate grievance, figuring out how much of it is just me feeling personally hurt, laying it all out and really looking at what's really happening and not just me. And of course, in pulling it apart, I realize, oh fuck, I am feeling so hurt and so much personal emotional pain and when I actually pulled it all apart, it really wasn't mired down in that level of pain as I thought it was. And so when I read this piece, I thought, it's so true because when I did that, it put everything in perspective.
I have had a few amazing years with creative explorer and of course it would fucking hurt when things end and I don't know what's going to happen with him but I thought, you know, that's true. When if it does end, it's going to hurt like a mother fucker for a few months but it's never going to compare to the years of amazing times I have had and so it's not easy to think that when you're right in the middle of it but as you're coming out the other end, it's a lot easier to accept it if you look back with those lenses. So it's a great piece. I really like it.
I have two instances, I guess, what I call backstabbing that have shaped me. Two backstabbing. Backstabbing through the heart. See, the first one was when I was 30 years old and it was actually the first time I fell in love.
Before I said it, then I realized that it was young infatuation that I thought was love. So I fell in love with this girl almost instantly. We had a great time. It ended up becoming a fling.
Very young, so shit happened. I won't go into full details of it because it's a long story but eventually my heart was broken. And I didn't know what to do. It was the first time.
It was the first time. I was three years old. How the fuck do you do with a heartbreak? So I spent an entire month drunk.
When I finally crawled out of that, I looked at myself and I said, okay, what can I do to change this? Because there were times where I saw signs but I didn't say anything. I kept quiet. And later on I should have said something.
Why didn't I say something? Why didn't I ask? I saw the signs but I chose to ignore it instead of doing something about it. So I went on what I called my spiritual journey and I worked on myself.
I boosted my confidence. I boosted my self-esteem. I worked on myself. I did a lot for a whole year.
And because of that, I ended up in the community. In the scene because when I finally got there and I started doing things for myself instead of for others, I said, what was it something I wanted? The King community. My roommate had introduced me a while ago.
I came in and secured it and did a lot of stuff. I hung out. That was something I really wanted to do but I couldn't at that time. So now let's dive in.
And here I am. So now I say as shitty as that situation was, I enjoyed my time with that person. I have some really great memories of that. But because of what happened, I grew a lot.
And I'm thankful for that. As shitty as it was, I'm very thankful that that event happened because I'm now in a good place with great people in a great relationship because of that. Right. And that's the other thing.
Kind of that's the other thing that goes literally on top of this that wasn't even mentioned in the post is when you go through real things in a relationship and you go through that pain that you've gone through, I mean, if you just stay drunk, obviously you're not going to learn anything. But you came out of the drunk, you did some work, you all of a sudden made some discoveries, you had your spiritual journey with yourself and you learned what you learned. And once again, if you live in that fear of rejection, not only are you going to not have relationships with people, whether they're temporary or not, they're all temporary, but you don't get the benefit of that self-reflection that's motivated by that pain. This pain is a motivator, you know, pain because you don't want to be in fucking pain.
So you're like, well, I can stay in pain or I can start working on the thing that caused me the pain. And then you started looking at the relationship, you started looking at the things that you could have done better. You know, that's all personal inventory stuff. That is amazingly valuable work to do on yourself that once again, if you live in that fear of rejection and you don't risk having those relationships because you're going to get hurt, wow, look at all that you missed.
Oh yeah. You know, so that's real exciting. And the second one, I'll keep that one short. That one also was, that one was what I called my test, because I learned all this stuff and here came to this and I'm like, all right, here's my test.
Here's the test out all the shit I learned. I failed miserably. Didn't go badly. Because some people aren't going to tell.
I fell. People just, you know, they're just not good at the test. You know, and that went more negative because in the end I'm like, okay, well, now this is twice. So I became very cynical towards women.
Anytime someone approached me, I'm like, what do you want from me? What are you trying to get from me? What are you trying to use me for? And I would keep an arm's length.
I'd bring in, do whatever I wanted to my, all right, cool bye. And it was shitty in a way. And it also, that was during the time I met my Michelle. And I was kind of towards the end of it, but I was still very cynical.
So I kept her arm's length. And every time something happened, I would question, what are you up to? What are you trying to get? What do you need from me to try and get out of?
And it caused some rift at the beginning of it. But like everything else, we kind of worked it out. She made me feel comfortable and was like, okay, so she's not just using me for whatever reason. So there's a downside to it a little bit as well.
But as you said, you got to look into yourself, figure out that math really, really, if you look at it, I mean, the pain, it's just like you said, it has such a power over you. You just want to avoid it so badly. But really, if you look at it honestly, compared to how much good it was, if you can look at it that way. And it doesn't always work out.
No, each relationship doesn't always work out. And some relationships start off and then you go into an abusive relationship or, you know, things get bad and people do suffer that. And so the math doesn't work. And that's why part of your math is because a lot of people don't get out of relationships because they have shitty math.
I've invested so much in this relationship. I can't just leave. I've given this person, there's some fucked up logic in your head that somehow I've done like three years in this shitty relationship. But if I don't want to lose, I don't want to feel stupid for wasting time.
So they spend another five years in the shitty relationship because they keep saying, I'm invested, I'll get it better. I don't want to lose what we've done. You know, it's just because they don't want to feel stupid. Feel stupid.
You're going to be stupid your whole life. We're fucking humans. We're all stupid. Just go ahead and be stupid.
If it's bad and the math hasn't worked out, then go. Just go and move on to, you know, to find that thing that does the math. I don't know why, but in my life, I had a therapist once that had worked with my mom and my dad. And my fucked up sister.
And so she knew my mom, fucking psycho woman who's now dad, good friends. And then my sister who I've been estranged from for, you know, like 15 years. And I remember I sat with a therapist and I come in and I'd be like, I just, you know, I love women and I just want to learn. I've always just been, I've just always been into women no matter how much I get fucked over by women.
I've never developed a hatred for women. Maybe some passive aggressive behaviors that I wasn't aware of. I definitely had those, but I always thought that I, you know, I never took it out on the whole of women enemy, wim-at wim-at wim-at-me, humanity of women. I'm trying to make a word.
Legal women? I had legal women, the entire legal, wim-at-te. I like wim-at-te is better. And I, that therapist was like, I know all the women that, because I was young at the time, she's like, I don't know how you don't have a fucked up view of women, because I know both your mom and your sister.
Wow. But, uh, I had a pain map work then. Well, at a time I really didn't believe in pain map because I didn't, A, I didn't understand that people are shitty. So I took everything personal.
I really didn't understand the reality that the universe, everything is temporary. No matter what, it's going to end. You know, maybe you'll get a good run. You know, I've had the longest run with Mew.
I've never been in a relationship. I was with a Biz for almost three years. No, I'm almost four years with Mew and almost two years with Bunny. And so I just never use that math, but now that I understand, you know, it's, it's temporary.
And it's okay if it's temporary. I can allow myself to have intimacy because if I get hurt, it's just pain. It's the same fucking note. It's one note.
It hurts. That's it. It's a note to sometimes it hurts a little more, sometimes a little left, but it's the same boring fucking pain. So I'm either going to be in pain for, for being lonely and fucking hate the world because I'm alone or I can just go ahead and trust somebody, you know, with a little bit of vetting, you know, and older.
But I would much rather just take the risk. Go ahead and hurt me. What the fuck do you have to do? You have to take that risk and even with asking someone out, there's, oh, what if I get rejected?
Well, you're not going to know, right? If you don't try, your rejection sucks. Plan for it. Be prepared for it, actually.
If you're going to ask somebody out, be prepared to be rejected, but that shouldn't stop you from asking. Then you live in the fucking rejection. You don't even know. You don't even give that person a chance to reject you.
And now you sucker, you fucking sucker. You now live in that rejection. You have now caused yourself that pain and rejected yourself on behalf of the other person without even being fucking rejected for real. And that's worse than the 10, 15 minutes.
The 10, 15 minutes of rejection. You know, like, go to foot. Okay. Whatever.
Hey, look, I don't want to be there. Yeah, absolutely. God damn it. All right.
Yeah. It's good. I can't. What is this?
What? This happened before. Did you record me taking a shit? I think so.
That's Hoppy Ramon. I had AMPM food. I did not agree. Gas station hot dogs.
This is it. This is it. This is it. Right now I'm trying to turn it off.
Thank you. That's the same. Oh, wait. How about this one?
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There is no zoo. There is no zoo. I'm sorry. There is no data on these zoo.
I make it a... I make it a rule tonight. Get involved with my clients that are possessed. I want you inside of me.
Actually, it's more of a guideline than a rule. Oh, fuck yeah. I'm sorry. Shut up, my boots.
Show up, my boots. That's short. So it was cold. It was cold during summer in the like 105 degree period.
Kathy, are you saying the alligator ball song is a lie? It is a lie. They don't hang real low. I have no.
I have nothing. No. Nothing. Not a thing.
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