17 years is a long time to continue wishing things were different EP 123

My dad passed away 17 years ago and most of that time has been spent, wishing things were different. I wish he was different, I wish he didn’t pass way, I wish I had more time with him, I wish, I wish, I wish. I also blamed him for some of the things I don’t like about myself (Isn't it so much easier to blame other people for your issues instead of looking in the mirror at the person who is really responsible for them!? I do it to, lol). I also found myself focusing a lot on his shortcomings and how I didn’t want to be like him. Over the last few years there’s been a shift. I have to imagine a lot has to do with me becoming a father five years ago. And maybe I'm maturing a bit... At age 40! I've been a lot more grateful for my dad. I pay more attention to the things I love about him, how I wanted to be like him growing up, and all the things he did well. A few things that stand out is how good he was with people, how he was in his element when in a crowd, on stage, or in front of a camera. How he wrote an article every week in the newspaper for over 30 years (I may have made up that number but I can assure you, it was for a long time!). It's not lost on me that I've found myself putting out this podcast most weeks and I writing something like an article to go with it. Truth be told, I'm just like him... Shortcomings and all. I've definitely made some improvements and largely, they're rooted in his teaching. Yes, I wish he was here. Yes, I wish I would have had the chance to have an adult relationship with him. Yes, I wish he could have met my family. However, that is not the reality. At this moment, I'm taking Byron Katie’s advise and “Loving What Is” instead of wishing, blaming, and focusing on shiz I cannot change. For my people to journal on: is there anything you're hanging on to that you'd like to let go of? Have you been blaming someone for some things that it's time to take responsibility for? What are some things you need to start embracing instead of “wishing” they were different. As always, I love you and it would mean the world to me if you gave us a written review on Apple Podcasts, Followed us on Spotify and anywhere else you listen to your podcasts.  Shout out to my girl H to the P - Here is Heather Parady's info and please check out her new Podcast - Happy Brain - https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/gratitude-jars/id1555659782?i=1000513709646 You can find all Heather's social and links here: https://direct.me/heatherparady K Preston Moore Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/k.preston.moore Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/highcostofanonymitypodcast/?ref=share