I'm 19 keys. This is high level conversation. You know, I'm currently on a journey of exploring my shadow self, right? I've been doing a lot of work with it.
I went to one day of therapy so far, right? And this is something that I'll probably start with again, step first, but exploring the mental health issues with them, my own family, right? And some of my own mistakes and things of that nature in life, I have a growth mindset. So I always want to get better, right?
And one thing that I learned was that, you know, the decisions that we make a lot of times of things that we do is not who we are, right? These are our preconditions. These are the way that we've been programming chiefly, it comes through childhood, right? So a lot of people don't examine their childhood, right?
I've been going through a deep examination of who I am to really show up as my authentic self at all times. And not just, you know, showing up in a sense to where this is what you show the world, right? But this is what you know of yourself. So I examine, you know, kind of going back into my own childhood, just looking at the dynamics of my parents' relationship, how did that affect me?
How did I feel at that time, right? You know, the words that were repeated to me as a youngster, how did that affect the relationships that I have with women or men, you understand me in business or finance, right? And really going back and doing that work I think is key because now I understand the shadow self in a way to where it was a term to be now it's an experience, right? And doing that work is something that benefits everybody, right?
Because there's a lot of people who don't realize that, you know, we make these decisions throughout life, right? And we cover up for them, but a lot of times it's, you know, your shadow self wanting to come out, right? And it's like, I'm giving an example, you can give me some examples on this, because I know it has to come up in your work a lot. You know, the decisions that we make on a daily basis, the mistakes that we make and the reasons why we do things are usually very emotionally connected.
And that place is not always present emotions, right? The place is usually past emotions that we foster. And your shadow self is always trying to reveal to you like, no, this is who I really am. This is who you're trying to be, but this is who I am, right?
And this is why you make mistakes. You're like, damn, why did you do that? And that's your shadow self saying, look, you've been suppressing me, right? But, you know, when you were a child, you went through this and that formed who you were, and then you created this, you know, you're working to create this alternative identity and you show the world all these things, but this is who we are, you know what I'm saying?
And I'm always this backseat passenger trying to remind you of who we are. So that self-war and that fight that we have against ourselves shows up when we're with somebody else as well. And so that's when people say, I thought I knew you, but I don't know you. Because you can know the light self that a person shows up, but you may not know they shadow self.
And that's the person that a person is battling and fighting. And you have to stop fighting with your shadow self and learn how to integrate it, understand it and be aware of it, which to me is the only, and making peace with it, which is the only way in order for you to live peacefully within yourself. Absolutely. You know, for some people, the struggle is they, their shadow self has been suppressed even when they were a child.
So they never, they don't even have like a reference point completely of who they really were because from very little, their parents were putting them in the box and not allowing them to explore themselves and understand themselves and tap into what really makes them happy. And so a lot of adults, they are struggling in so many ways because they don't know who they are or they have an idea, but they're either ashamed to be that person or they feel like, let's say it's a career thing. I remember once I had a client, when she was a little girl, she loved performing. She loved acting.
Now for her, it wasn't being suppressed because she even went to an acting school. But at some point, I can't remember what shifted, but something happened where she had to stop the acting school. She eventually becomes a social worker, but she like feels empty every day doing social work. Her heart is in the arts.
You know what I'm saying? But now at this point in life, it's like, how do I transition to the arts when that doesn't pay the bills? And it's not an easy thing is to pick it up. So now I have to continue to stay in this prison that I don't want to be in because I'm afraid to accept who I really am and be that person where my happiness is.
So there's so many people and what then happens for a lot of individuals is because they don't know themselves and they can't walk in their truth. The partner they choose does not fit the true self. It fits the current representation of self. You know what I'm saying?
And what happens is, you know, I always say, you can't suppress the real you forever. It's going to come out at some point. And so you have a lot of relationships that at some point in it, the real self comes out and starts to see. They either see the person they picked they don't like or the person they pick realizes I don't like the real you.
So now that's all this conflict. But then again, kind of like the lady who is now a social worker can't go to acting, it's the person who now has a baby with this person who's married to this person who's built this entire life. And it's like, how do I leave this even though I know this does not connect with the real me, you know, and to add another layer to it, it makes it even harder if that person, your partner isn't really doing anything wrong. They're not a bad person, but you're not feeling them like that.
And because you're not feeling like that, you're never going to be able to pour into them the way that they need. They can't pour into you the way that you need. It's just a disaster waiting time. I mean, it's already happened disaster, but it's only going to get worse from there.
So it's really unfortunate. And that's why I think we really got to embrace finding ourselves as soon as possible. Like I don't like how society, even when it comes to education, a lot of us go to college. We don't know what we want to major in that first year.
And what they say, oh, you got to tell Junie, don't worry about it. You know, just go to the classes right now and figure out later. And that seems like a good idea. It's bad because then what happens is you become a junior.
You got to pick something and you force it because you never really spent those first few years finding yourself. You're just cruising through college. And so in so many different areas, we overlook the need to really get in touch with who we really are and understand that's the foundation to build the light that's truly best for us. You know how hard they try to stop us from getting right here?
You know how many of us had to die? You know how many of us have been taught them bled? They're still on these stages, then marched and got beat down and been hanged and been wished. We don't fall for the right to be, to get novice to our people, to resurrect the dead.
But we here. We came here because you recognize something is wrong in the world. If we create new culture, we create new values, we create new systems, we have ourselves new options. In the God, there's a power being able to take the self-power that we have, the self-knowledge that we have, and take the thoughts that are inside of us and enjoy life by bringing them into reality.
We play God when we come together, right? Not what we are for. Oh. Somebody was very good.
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Highest level. Well, let's see it in our actions on a daily basis. We say what's your family. Go to war and take over, play the money.
The highest level towards, you know, it's a moment in history that we get to think about in Revishan and be a part of. This is me proving my thought leadership. This is me implementing the ideas and reinfigorating the spirit that we're going to need to win in the future right now.