208 Lindsay Jewell: Our stories do not have to end in the dark. They can begin in the light.

In Lindsay's words:  I have my own personal experience with the supernatural, an awesome spiritual awakening, ETs, angels and NDEs but when I listen to many other stories I feel like people leave out a big part of the story and that is, that their life was in hell before their experience. People are ashamed to talk about trauma, mental illness or addiction due to being ridiculed. Also, people are scared to talk about their spiritual awakenings or supernatural experiences when there is addiction involved. I believe that we don't need to be ashamed of where we have been or what has been done to us. It is about how we recover from these events.. We don't need to live in the shadows and act that this stuff doesn't exist or if someone has an experience that is incredible that we downplay their story if they mention mental health, addiction or trauma. In any sort of recovery whether is be from PTSD, mental illness, abuse, addiction etc. You will find that all have the same outcome: a spiritual awakening.. When we live in the darkness it is the light that leads us back home.  I am a survivor of a long list of traumas. I was molested at age six along with other children and had to watch this man get convicted. This led me on a path of addiction, loss of self, domestic violence. I was raped at 18 and gang rape at 33. When I was in the army in 2011 my molester from childhood got out of prison and went on to molest other children again and we were told we might have to testify again as adults.. I have had to testify on stand against my perpetrator for the rape in which he received a life sentence. I was told by different doctors that I had bipolar disorder, manic depression, borderline personality, PTSD, and social anxiety just to name a few. I have struggled with self mutilation, suicidal ideation and guilt and shame for most of my life. I went to college, got a bachelor's degree, joined the Army but still lost my career because of addiction. I have been incarcerated as an adult where all my flaws were seen. I was humiliated, flooded by shame, guilt and no self love. I searched for that missing piece in me by drugs, people pleasing and unhealthy relationships. When the worst was over and I hit rock bottom and tried to take my life the first time I had the most beautiful experience a spiritual awakening and encounters with the supernatural. I knew the healing was beginning. In jan 2021 I had a NDE in which I did go to another place and that I had to come back. I believe my purpose is to tell my story to bring hope to the ones who feel hopeless, unloved, broken, ashamed, disconnected or alone know that they too can shine bright after the darkness.                  3 top tips for my audience: 1. Your past if not who you are it's just an experience 2. You need to break patterns of self sabotage 3. You need to wake up Wait, there is more!!! Have a look at  www.mystepstosobriety.com  to see which other books and projects I am involved in!  And follow me on Instagram, Podcast, Facebook and Linkedin! https://stephanneff.podbean.com/ https://www.facebook.com/stepstosobriety/ https://www.instagram.com/stepstosobriety/ https://www.linkedin.com/in/stephan-neff-author/See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.