#27 一場奇怪的遊戲 A Strange Game of the Self

Our current personalities are constantly playing all sorts of tricks. But in this process of playing, are we truly safe?我們現在的人格，一刻不停地玩著各種花樣。但在玩的過程中，是不是就安全了呢？Can we truly eliminate the unease caused by losing touch with our primordial awareness?是不是就能消除迷失本覺帶來的不安呢？We know that computers need constant system patches to fix problems that arise during operation. In fact, once a deluded life system starts running, it develops "vulnerabilities" even more frequently than a computer.我們知道，電腦需要不斷地更新系統補丁，來彌補運行過程中產生的種種問題。其實，迷妄的生命系統一旦運行起來，會比電腦更頻繁地出現漏洞。As long as this life system continues to run, problems will emerge endlessly.所以，只要生命系統還在運行，問題就會層出不窮。While the "Self" puts on its performance, reality is constantly exposing these tricks and revealing the truth of impermanence.因為在自我進行表演的同時，現實正在不斷地戳穿這些把戲，不斷展示無常的真相。We wish for our bodies to be eternal, yet every physical form withers and races toward death. This is a truth we cannot avoid or ignore.我們希望身體永恆，但任何色身都會日漸衰老，都會奔向死亡，這是我們無法迴避、無法視而不見的真相。From the perspective of practice, this is precisely the perfect opportunity to unbind the self.而從修行角度來說，這正是自我鬆綁的良機。What we need to do is not to stop these changes, nor to resist the invasion of impermanence. On the contrary, we simply need to face it all.我們所要做的，不是去阻止這種變化，不是去抵抗無常侵襲。恰恰相反，我們只須正視這一切。Whatever we cling to, we are trapped by. When the object of our attachment changes, the "Self" loses its foundation; it becomes suspended and fragile.我們執著什麼，就會被什麼套住。而它發生變化時，自我就因失去依托基礎而懸空了，脆弱了。If we apply our strength accurately at this moment, we can strike a decisive blow and dismantle the self.如果用力準確，我們就能一擊而中，瓦解自我。But we often fail to understand this. When one thing slips away, we instinctively grasp another as a substitute to mask the truth and comfort this frustrated ego.但我們往往不懂得這一點，當這個東西抓不住時，就本能地去抓另一個作為替補，用來掩飾真相，用來安慰這個受到挫折和驚嚇的自我。Little do we know, everything we can "grasp" is merely a substitute for the self. What a strange game it is—to give up countless opportunities to know ourselves, only to spend lifetimes reinforcing a "Fake I" that is full of holes.殊不知，我們能夠抓住的，都不過是自我的替代品。我們放棄很多認識自已的機會，卻把今生乃至生生世世的時間都用來加固一個破綻百出的假我，這是場多麼奇怪的遊戲啊！