I see this show sponsored by Henley, Henley, this show's was by Henley. That's what I need, Kathy. I need a blowjob. A blowjob you shall not receive.
Well, then you're not really a team player, are you, Kathy? Wow, that was quite a leap. Quite a leap? Yeah, no blowjob, no team player.
That's it. You're totally not on board with me. Wiener monkey, seafood buffet, Kathy? Uh-huh, Wiener's and monkeys.
Wiener monkey, seafood buffet. Think about it. I'll think about it. Think about it, Kathy.
I won't but okay. You have Wiener monkeys. That's these giant monkeys that crawl around and they have giant weiners and then they serve you buffet food, like crab cakes, maybe some jellyfish. I don't know what the fuck, primates eat.
So an ape with a big dick comes to my table and gives me lunch? What? Wiener monkey is seafood buffet. Big monkey weiners got Kathy thinking about dick all day.
What do you think, Kathy? Oh, my God, that is such a disgusting, can we actually do a perverted show instead of this ridiculous, if it's not apes serving me food with gigantic cocks, it's pickle dicks or it's, you know, we need to stop. We need to draw the line somewhere, boogie. Kathy, do you notice how you came back a second time to the big dicks?
Wiener monkey is seafood buffet. Big monkey weiners got Kathy thinking about dick all day. The second time? You said they were going to come to the table with big dicks.
Yes, but I only said it once. You've not repeated it three times. So I think your monkey Wiener seafood buffet obsessed with the waiting staff. Just do me a favor.
Save your improv for some open mic night. And when it comes to the show, let's stick to the notes boogie. I have notes all over my fucking keyboard. I have like 75 post it notes.
One that says I bought them. Do you want to talk about that? Oh, yes, you bought them too to the show. We all know you bought them to the show.
No, no. To an actual human. Your friend. Let's find out.
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In front of our laptop studio audience? No, I can't wait any longer. Did you bought them too? What?
Wiener monkey seafood buffet? No. Wiener monkey seafood buffet. Big monkey wiener's got cat to think about dick aldur.
It's buffet. I should know that better. If I'm going to open an imaginary restaurant. Get away from what you said.
No. I'm dying to know. I did needle play this morning with Leah. You let her poke you?
I needed a B12 shot and stuck it in my arm. She had to get a wipe and she left the syringe hanging in my arm. It's just dangling there, throwing, throwing. That's how we roll.
It's how we roll. Fuck Texas. Excuse me. I'll be right back.
I'm going to let this needle hang off to your flesh. I was lucky. I'm getting tingly numbing in my fingers. Not the left side, which is a heart attack.
You're probably low. I'm like, yeah, I have anemic. Right now I have a D patch on. I have my B12 shot and bottomed to fucking Leah this morning.
The reason I say that it's funny, I go, this is the first interaction with a human I think I've had in six weeks. I'm like, hey, this is like bottoming. This is the closest I've ever been since childhood. Dark.
Don't go there, boogie. How do you feel after your B12 shot? Nothing. I don't know.
My hands haven't been as tingly today. That's good. A little needles and stuff like that. That's one of the side effects of it.
I read it. It's listing all the things I'm like manic paranoia and depression and extreme cases. I'm like, you know, maybe a B12 shot might be good. But here was what was funny.
I thought she was going to shoot me in the butt cheek with it. I went and showered. I got all ready this morning before anyone got up. I said, if I'm going to show my butt to somebody.
I'm going to have, I'm like, is that going to play? That's as close as I go. That's like bottoming. I was like, all mentally prepared.
I go, it's not bottoming. It's just a B12 shot. Just take it in the ass and fucking be a good boy. I'm all, don't say good boy like that.
You had this whole conversation in your head? This whole conversation. And then she's like, okay, let's do it. And then she just puts the thing on my arm and I go, oh, duh.
So that was my bottoming. Well, at least she's a very nice friend that she cares about you enough to give you a B12 shot. That's nice. She's got to keep me going because I mowed the lawn yesterday.
Might need my energy back. Except I did get a big goal. Cool. Now remember that I have failed all of my dreams and hopes and had to change up what I sought after to do in life multiple times, which we're going to actually talk about in the post.
Yeah. One of my goals was always to have a platinum record, you know, as a kid, you know, that was my dream. Sell a million records and I realized I'm not going to sell a million records or 10. So, you know, now with the internet and the videos, you know, it was, well, maybe at least I could get a million views.
And with the Dr. Dosexplanations video, it's almost a two million views now. And I talked about that on the show a year ago or so and said, oh, it was kind of cool, but it wasn't exactly my video. You know, it was her video and I was there and I, you know, did stuff.
So it was kind of like it. But this finally, me and I have achieved, I called me and congratulated her are how to give a sensual spanking video after five, six years of being up, finally passed one million views, which isn't compared to, you know, you have a panda farting in a box and it's 20 million views. That's hilarious. But it's true.
It is, it is true. You panda farting in a box is big comedy, lots of views, but to have something that we made together in hopes of, you know, maybe educating some people and giving a different point of view of what they think of spanking, which I think we accomplished, you know, to have that view to a million times. It is not the original childhood dream, but it is still, it's kind of cool. And the takeaway from that, from the comments, there was hundreds of comments on this thing.
Why is her ass yellow? Why is she acting like she's dead? This guy looks like Uncle Ian from Alvin in the Chipmunks. And how did I end up on the dark side of YouTube?
Pretty much the predominant, you know, that's hilarious. But there were lots of comments like, Hey, this was really actually kind of cool. And I love spanking and blah, blah, blah, blah. So for all of the jokes and little hate males that we got, it really did serve the purpose.
And I think it showed some people a corny, more sensual side of spanking. Yeah, that's pretty cool, actually. But let's get past that. Alrighty.
You had something listed about you with a blankie and I want to know what it was. Alright, here's the thing, Boogie. Whenever you're with somebody and that somebody has, let's say, other partners coming over to his house, you have to draw some kind of boundaries, right? Because you know that, oh, no, what?
Not what you think it is. It's not. No, I'm very careful about, you know, not insinuating myself where I don't belong, but I do spend a lot of time at Creative Explorers Place. And so a lot of my stuff ends up being there.
So I make sure that when I leave all my, let's say toiletries or in the drawer, in the spare bathroom and I take my pillow off of his bed and my towels and I put them away so that nobody uses them because I can be picky and I can't really blame anybody if they're using something that's just lying around. Sure. So yeah, I mean, that's a common thing when there's more than one sexual partner in a house. It's very polite and it's good and it keeps some set of boundaries, which I think is very healthy.
Exactly. So my cousin had given me this absolutely gargantuan blanket for Christmas, which was, I think the size of, for a California king bed. It was huge and it was beautifully soft. It was all fleece on one side and just soft velvety on the other side.
I don't think I've ever had anything quite as luxurious as this. It was really quite lovely and it was this soft gray color. The point is I really liked it. And because I got it over, you know, the winter holidays, I was, it was cold.
So I took it to Creative Explorers house because I have a tiny little bed over here and that thing was just going to be hitting the floor. So I thought, oh, great. I'm going to take a recurring s'mores place, put it on his bed and keep me nice and warm and comfy. So I love that thing and every time I get into bed, I pull it over my face and I wipe it on my face because it's just so delicious and I love it right before I go to bed.
And then a few weeks ago, no, no, no, no, I go to his place and I look over at the blanket that's on the bed and there are these kind of like white marks on them. Oh, no, I knew when you said you'd go. No, and the thing is I'm a bat squeamish. I mean, my God, I've left those marks too, but it's my blanket and that means they are someone else's juices that have just dried on my beautifully soft blanket, right?
Not even washing it. And you can't wash this thing. It can't go in the dryer. You would have to wash it in a big, it won't fit in his washer and then I would have to hang it outside somewhere.
I mean, there's just no washing this thing. That is party foul. That is polyamory 101 party foul polyamory 101 party fucking foul. Yeah.
Creative Explorer. Bad, bad, bad, bad. Now, he doesn't give a shit because he doesn't care about any of that stuff, right? And so I'm like looking at it going, huh, I'm going to have to point this out because this is not something I'm happy with, but I have to do it the right way.
I can't get all pissy and I kind of pointed out to him and I said, hey, you know, what's that over there? And then I over there. And then there's another one over there. And he goes, I don't know what this is.
I'm all, I think you do know what this is. Yeah, I think I know what this is. Did you have so and so over this weekend? Yes.
Okay, five, five, five. Look, I said, I'm not going to be one of those women, but I love this blanket. I am not going to lie. I love this blanket.
And I would rather that you didn't have sex on it. I don't think that I'm asking for too much. He goes, no, I got a problem with that. And so maybe you could just take it off the bed whenever, you know, so I go over there the following week.
And my blanket is all scrunched up on one corner of the bed and I'm all, what the hell happened to the blanket? And he says, well, I had my other friend over and, you know, we had sex and I didn't want to get anything on your blanket. And I swear to God, Boogie, I was fighting back getting tears in my eyes. I'm all, you move the blanket inside so you could fuck someone else.
You do love me. Oh, God, Kathy. I'm such an idiot. Kathy, bro.
Up your fucking game, bro. I can't. I was just so touched. No, no, no.
Dream bigger. Dream bigger in your poly relationship. It doesn't take that much to make me happy. Like she's a seedling.
He doesn't even know what I have remained mostly silent except for a lot of shit talking. This is not bro. That'd be like fucking you leaving her lobsters and I wiped some chicks fucking pussy with it. That's just, it's funny.
That's dick move. It's your blanket. He knows it's your blanket. No, he just doesn't have look.
I'm not defending him. I just know him better than you know him. He just doesn't see those things and all you have to do is bring it up to him once and I'm like, oh, yeah, sure, I can do that. No problem.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I don't mean to be righteous, but this is so you're going to be right. He can do better. He does good on a lot of things and we make a lot of jokes that he's fucking like some weird fucking anomaly matrix box of a robot human that is interesting. But that's, I don't know.
I know you've learned to become accustomed and find the cuteness and I think that's very very. It's not just the cuteness. A lot of the stuff he does I find annoying his fuck, but I also have a much higher tolerance for people than you do. Yeah.
Yeah. I would just say that that's disrespectful. That's disrespectful of my things and it's disrespectful of the dynamic. I mean, that's just one of the things that and it's fine if it's a mistake like, oh shit, I didn't think about it.
No, he just. But it is kind of one of those things. If you've been with somebody and you're going to start going in Polly and you've set up your ground rules, it's just like, don't fuck people on my stuff. And then, you know, if not, take a little effort.
You know, I don't know. I just, I'm sorry. The second you said, Polly and my blanket and creative explorer in the same story. We knew.
We knew. Oh my God. It was good. Hey, I would much right.
I would be out the fucking door. If I brought it up to him and he said something like, well, I'm sorry, but that's not my problem or he did it again, even though I asked him. He has a tremendous amount of respect for me. He just doesn't see things right away.
And what, you know what? Like every other fucking guy in my life, come on. I'm sorry, but most men, they don't see shit like that. Kathy, I have not put human fingernails in front of you ever since that one show.
Yeah, but you did it once. Just like creative. I did it once. So it was, but I've never done it.
You knew perfectly well that I would not like it and it was not socially acceptable. In fact, you did it for that reason. See, I have a lot more respect for someone who doesn't see it and once I bring it up, he's fine. Then for what you did, which was I know Kathy's not going to like it, but I'm going to do it anyway.
Don't turn this around on me. It's not enough, mister. I didn't shoot my load on your fucking blanket you're ant made for you. You have shot your load on the chair that I used to have to sit on in a love lab for every fucking show.
That was more masturbation stuff. It's not. It wasn't somebody else's. See, I always consoled myself thinking, oh, it's lovely muse, little secretions.
Oh, no, it was boogie. Man, man, just me here. You know, sometimes you're in that office and you're actually born, but don't I never got in on the chair, but now we're distracting. We have completely distracted from that topic and I feel somehow responsible for that distraction.
Somehow. God damn it. Well, that was it. That was my blankie story.
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Why your peace of mind, please know that the other every post we talk about has specifically granted us permission to do so this week we have a post by unicorn husbandry, which is a great name. We've used a couple of his posts in the past. And I'm there and jerk off that unicorn. Doesn't even take that takes away from the like magic of two unicorns making love.
The magic of it that someone's got to go out there with that weird leather sack that they fucking have the, you know, horse mount. It just takes away all the romance to unicorns with their little mains blowing and sparkly rainbow dust running through the fields, meeting each other in the middle and then, you know, just one just mounts the other and it's love and then they make a little unicorn baby. What kind of crazy fantasies are blown around in your head that that's what you think happens. Look, I considered getting a fucking B12 shot a place scene.
So, you know, I'm a little repressed. You're hard up for a scene. Hard up. I would love to watch do you an ogorns fuck right now?
No. All right. All right. He wrote a post called Making Opportunities Happen bread and jam for Francis Bacon.
I got to tell you, this is one of those posts that I absolutely love. It's filled with all kinds of historical and literary references that make me just want to sit there and curl up and read it over and over and over again. But it was like a fairy tale pulp fiction. It kind of was because he jumped around, you know, and did other things and made things say, you know, yeah, really be on your game.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Yeah. Well, I so that the title isn't going to make a whole lot of sense to you if you because I'm not going to read you the whole thing.
But it's a great opportunity to let you know if you do want to read the whole thing. You can read that and any of the other posts we discuss on our perverted podcast group age on that like calm right at the top is a sticky called Fit Life stuff posts and I put all of them up there so you can click those links and read it. And this one I love. This is what he says.
Sir Francis Bacon famously once said, a wise man makes more opportunities than he finds. I love this idea. I love everything about it. And you should too.
Because Fit Life and also life is full to the brim of people who are specifically not making opportunities. They are waiting for opportunities. I'm waiting for the right one to come along. You've heard this.
You might even have said it yourself. We know what we like and that's what we want to have. But when we wait for opportunity to find us, we are aimed at a life of almost certain disappointment. Sure, it could be that the perfect Dom who meets your specs is about to walk into your local munch and sweep you off your feet.
The subvious little masochist may be waiting right around the corner. It could happen. I mean, it probably won't, but it could. But do you know what will happen if you wanted to?
You could meet the person who is pretty good and could be excellent. Someone who is interesting in their own way, full of hidden treasures if you are only willing to make that opportunity happen. In my house, the aphorimism, Fortune favors the bold, is repeated daily through the course of talking with my children. Because it's true.
We make our own luck. We make our own opportunities. There is something to be found of worth in every human being. But often, we are not bold enough to look and see what it is, to explore the dark corners and abandon addicts of their personality.
And this exploration can be awkward and frustrating. And often, you will find that although something is nice, you would rather not order it again. Oh, what joy in the discovery? Kathy?
Okay. You know what my takeaway from this is? What? Three words.
Lower your standards. Uh-huh. Lower your, or change a point of view, but I don't know how many words change your point. That's five.
Okay. But kind of the same thing. It's just, I love a post like this because it's kind of been the unfortunate theme of my life. I have had to change from plan A to plan B to plan D to plan D.
And I, you know, I've run through the fucking alphabet. I'm on like L to the fourth power. It's true. I spent most of my life waiting.
And I still do in some ways. And it cripples me emotionally. And as far as getting new opportunities, every time I get into that fantasy stage where I'm like, oh, if I just, you know, win the lottery or if somebody just finds the podcast or like a big show, you know, just, you know, they just have to be meandering through, you know, fat life or something. And you're just the more you wait for those things, the more, because I think it's more than one, you know, I have thousands of them, thousands of things that I would be so excited if they just landed in my lap.
And that goes for relationships, it goes for jobs. And the more I sit and wait for those, the more miserable I am because none of it has ever shown up. Right. Oh, was that it?
No, I have lots more, but I was getting you a chance to jump in there. Sorry. I agree with you. In fact, we were just talking about this a few short minutes ago in reference to creative explorer.
I find a lot that I love in the people I play with. They are certainly not everything to me because my opinion has always been that nobody can be everything to you. You can get lucky and find people who happen to take a lot of your boxes. But if I'm happy enough and confident enough and feel safe enough to play with somebody, I don't have to have that person be everything to me.
I can enjoy them for the things that I do like. And so this is why I've always been someone who I find it difficult to write down what it is that I want in a partner. My list seemed to be a little bit more vague. Like, you know, there has to be mutual respect.
There has to be some sense of loyalty. You know, they're kind of vague things because as long as you just take some of those general boxes, I can probably find something that I like about you. Really? So this is why I loved what?
No, I do find something that I like about you. You and I meet together when it comes to this podcast and we have a ridiculously irreverent sense of humor that we both enjoy that other people are like, oh my God, did they really just say that to one another and we make each other laugh? That's all I need. I don't need to have you be my everything.
Well, you know, we don't have to stop sure. I mean, I'm not going to let Mew come on your blanket. That's a big win for me. I'll fold it and I'll put it in the stack with the other blankets, which I have done before.
You know, there's yours, you know, we'll get it out, you know. No. All right. I get what you're saying.
I surely get what you're saying. And I think it's kind of like polyamory, life polyamory, you know what I mean? Yeah. I mean, I'm not going to have to have this kind of a relationship.
It's so many things in your life. If you say I have to have this type of career or I have to get this type of education or I need to be creative in only this way, that's very limiting as well. And most of the time you will not achieve that specific goal because it's your goal and it doesn't match with how the world actually works, which is what I found in so many instances of my life. Now, there are certain things that you can do and you can do this, this, that, that and at the end, you will achieve this degree or this job.
But I find that in so many different things, especially in friendships and creativity, you have to be flexible. I did not start as a three year old expecting at this age, my main thing would be a podcast that touches on my creativity and I get to make little songs and jingles and play my crappy songs at the end of the show. But the basis of the show was to discuss my fuck ups in life and hopefully help people not be fuck ups themselves because of the wisdom that we share from our experiences. That was not my first choice.
But what I have found is by lowering my standards that I'm not going to be a rock star, that I'm not going to be a movie star, that I'm not going to be a hit songwriter or any of these other things, I have allowed myself to become flexible and go, what can I do? And we fell into this podcast. Yeah. And as a result, it has been hands down, no question, no argument, the most fulfilling, the most creative and the most inspiring thing I've ever done entertainment wise.
Those three things I would say are the same for me. Yeah. I think they're, they're taking all three of the same boxes for both of us. So that would have never happened if I would have stayed focused on I can only be a rock star.
Right. And I would go so far as to, I mean, I have a, let me just say that I have a vanilla friend who has these, she considers high standards. They're, in my opinion, ridiculously high standards. And I would go so far as to say a lot of times when people say I have these standards, what they really are saying is I have a fantasy in my head.
Right. And they unfortunately think the two are the same. And I think that's where we get into trouble is when you take in the fantasy that has been created. I mean, you have this melting pot in your head and everything from your childhood and your adolescence got dumped in there, whether you knew it or not.
Every, every, you know, Cinderella, snow, white sleeping beauty, fairy tale, you, you read or your parents read to you every, every bedtime story, then every book you read and movies, all of this, you know, coalesced into this fantasy in your head of the ideal job, the ideal career, the ideal, uh, mate, the ideal kids, the ideal way you look. And before you know it, you have these high standards, which have all come from your fantasies in your head. And I think it's really important that, uh, we as adults begin to pull that apart and truly ask ourselves how much of this is a standard that I really want to uphold and how much of it is a fantasy that needs to be fucking ground down under my heel and kicked out the door because it's not doing me any good. Very good post.
And open a restaurant called Wiener Monkey Seafood Buffet. No Wiener Monkey Seafood Buffet. Giant dangling cocks to tantalize Kathy's culinary appetite for cock. You know, I do have an appetite, but not culinary for cock.
I don't know what you're talking about. You don't ever like put on a bib before you blow creative explorer. You know, like, like one of those lobster bibs. You know, with like a little plastic gloves, you know, and like maybe a nutcracker just to put there and then like talk to it and be like, oh, you are so succulent.
Oh, no. I will suck you. You are such a great culinary delight. Do you make a sound?
That is not what I sound like when I blow him. Is it like, wah, wah, wah. This is, this is you stretching your improv muscles, right? No, I'm just thinking about how, how you dine on a penis.
Uh huh. Sometimes I'm wearing an apron. I was close. It is close to a bib.
When bibby listeners goes and questions, Kathy's bottle fills the tension. We must go to a kinky post and fuck up problems. He gets our shit out of it. On the way, we try to solve them.
Luke, are they? Don't tell us what you have found on the Reds. I found on the Reds a really good question by somebody. This was a woman who is so submissive.
Basically what it came down to is she's so scared that she's not a good sub or that she's going to do something wrong or is not doing enough to please her master that she ends up more focused on those worries than on the actual scene itself. In other words, her insecurity issues mean that she can't fully let go and enjoy the scene. That's just fucking made me want to cry because I know what that's like the horrible place to be in. You're not enjoying yourself at all.
You're focused on the mechanics of everything and someone else's reactions to the point where you could get to the end of an hour long scene and not even remember it because you're too worried about and too afraid that you're not doing it right. So in other words, at that point, you're trying to dominate your dominance experience and you're getting in your own head about it? Well, it's slippery slope for us submissive or a bottom because that's what we're wired to do is to please your partner. And sometimes we don't see at what point that desire to please them has tipped over into such extreme worry and fear that we're no longer even present in the scene because we're so focused on that stuff.
So it can be you suddenly find yourself there and you don't even remember how you fucking got there. And I remember in the beginning with Creative Explorer realizing that a bunch of time had gone by and I was so focused on other things that I wasn't even present or enjoying it. And I remember having an internal dialogue with myself really I was really angry with myself at the time thinking this is fucking bullshit. You're going to stop this.
You did not get into this not to be able to enjoy this. If you're not 100% liking on some level what you're doing, then get the fuck out. At this point the reason I got so angry with myself was because at this point, Creative Explorer had already proven to me that he was somebody I could trust. And here I was still fucking worrying.
We were communicating very well and I wasn't present in the middle of the scene and I just told you got to jolt yourself out of this fucking headspace because this is no good. I guess I'm getting a little intense here because I remember how angry I was at myself when I realized this and how determined I was not to let this happen again. And in the middle of the scene boogie I would find myself selfishly thinking, stop thinking about him and think about how good this feels. Like whether he was spanking me, whether he was fucking me, whether I was giving him going down on him.
Whatever we were doing, the submissive or the bottom part of me was like, no that's wrong. You're being selfish. You're not supposed to be thinking of yourself. And I had to knock myself out of that headspace.
So I understand perfectly well what she's going through when you try to make sense of those two warring parts of your own brain, the part that wants to please and the part that actually wants to enjoy what you're going through. But there's definitely a point where like I said that that tips over into an extreme worry and fear that permeates the entire scene and you're not even present anymore. That's the point where you've got to say something is wrong if I'm spending an entire scene in worry. That is, I'm so happy that you were able to come in from that point of view and explain more of your process because from the other side I've seen it and it's not pretty because it's really at that point I'm an afterthought.
And like I can't sense this, like I haven't been doing this long enough that I can't sense when the bottom is completely not into it, that their body language isn't reading a thousand ways to Sunday that something is amiss. And even if I couldn't tell you have now taken hold, you've made the insecurity of not being enough of service to actually making the entire scene now about you because you're obsessed now completely over you. You're in a battle with yourself and that person that is putting their effort and energy into you is now an afterthought. So at that moment, you are not doing me any favors by trying to muscle through something because there's no power exchange at that moment.
So I would prefer at any phase of the game and I have had this happen multiple times in multiple places that the person says, I'm in my head. The reason they have the ability to do that is because I've given them that permission. And I have tried to create a scene where we communicate enough that if you're having a problem, I'm not going to be disappointed if you tell me because that's normal insecurities and problems with your focus, personal enjoyment and all of those things. That's all normal.
That is absolutely normal. And that's something that if you include me in that conversation, then I have the chance to support you through it so we can then hopefully either stop the scene and try it again another time or we can pick it up and be in a headspace where there's actually a power exchange. It does. I don't know that I would agree that in some of the stuff that you said, but I see what you're saying from a top's point of view, if you're doing this, you're taking that your top's ability to dominate the scene away from them.
But it's not done from that. Or even to support you. Yeah, but it's not done from a place of malicious intent. Like I said, it's done from a place of worry and fear.
Yeah, I'm not. I'm surely not saying that this is something that's malicious. I'm just telling you, if you're spending this whole scene and you're thinking about, I'm not doing this or I should be doing this or I'm mad at myself because I'm not able to enjoy the scene or I'm not able to or I should do this, it's all a bunch of eyes. There's no we at that point.
There's no I'm in a scene with a person and I should stop and tell them even though the issue is I'm beating myself up because I'm not giving enough in the scene, but you're not giving me anything because you're completely obsessed with yourself. Yeah, but the bottom doesn't realize that they think that they're doing all this for you because their primary focus is am I doing this right for him or her? Am I doing this in the right way? That's why we're talking about this outside of the scene.
So now that we've talked about that fear in the scene, now we have a chance. This is the reflection. Right. So this is why, I mean, nobody is saying that you shouldn't be concerned with the way that you're bought top ones because that's actually as a dominant, that's what we want out of our submissives or our bottoms is for them to be thinking about our needs and what we want.
And it is a power exchange as we've said many times. It's an exchange. Not to the point where your fear and your worry takes over, not to the point where you can think of nothing more than the how you're doing and is this pleasing them. I mean, earlier when I said, I thought to myself, this is bullshit.
I don't want to do this anymore. It was for selfish reasons. It was because I wasn't enjoying myself. It was because this was no longer a power exchange.
And why am I even here? I could go home and masturbate under the covers and get off and not have to deal with going over to somebody else's house. Sure. So there was a selfishness there.
I want to enjoy myself when I'm with my partner, whether I'm topping or bottoming. And I can't enjoy myself if I'm not present because my fears are taking over. I absolutely agree. Get the cheap, erotic, a standard out of your head.
Yeah. Exactly. Because that's what it is. You are coming in with some once again, you're coming in with your own idea that you're supposed to be like this.
I mean, now that I can surely understand the stress if you're with a dominant that's not a great communicator, that has somehow told you that you have to be this certain way and do this certain thing. And if you don't do this, you're a failure. That in my opinion is more abusive. And that's not the type of dominant that you are going to do well with.
And maybe you should seek out a dominant that will have a conversation with you beforehand that says something along the lines of, Hey, if you get caught up in your head, just talk to me about it. We can change directions. We can have a conversation. The goal is that we both get something out of this scene.
That's the interaction. That's the power exchange. And it exchange means I give you something. You give me something.
I think you're right. I think you have to get down to the reasons why you're doing that. And the fan porn fantasy ridiculousness that we all assume is what King is all about when we first come in to the scene is the number one culprit. You've somehow figured out in your head that this is what you're supposed to be and this is what a submissive is.
And the submissive looks this way and submissive moves this way, reacts to being punished this way. What, for whatever reason, where you got it from doesn't even matter. The point is it's in your head and you're trying to live up to that expectation. Just stop it because you're ruining the relationship there.
Make up your own relationship as you go. Don't try and live up to a preset standard. You guys, man. And we're going to read it for the mail box because you need to get a couple of bits of mail to read for you, boogie.
I'd like you to lay those on me, baby cakes. I'm going to lay them on you right now. This was from Willie who wrote, Tess, and said, actually, I'm going to you and said, hey, boogie, I hope things are going well. You mentioned that you were looking for kinky women folk nearby and I know Corpus Christi is a decent-sized city.
There must be some kind of scene there, right? Really big? Have you found anyone there? Well, when I was coming out, did I mention, did we talk about this yet?
When I was coming out here, because I'm in a city like, you know, just a little bit away from Corpus. And so I went to the group quote unquote groups in Corpus. And so I said, hey, I'm coming out. I'm just looking for some community.
Do you guys have anything? Maybe I know we're not doing munchies or anything right now. Here I am and I'm coming out. What do you got?
And I forgot about it. And then I went through all my stuff and I came out here and I went back like literally, you know, like last week, I've already been out here a few weeks. And literally there's three comments and everyone was just totally negative. There's no lifestyle here.
We used to have a lifestyle. It's bullshit. If you were bored in LA, you're going to die out here. Oh my God.
And I'm like, so we've had some community issues in the fine city of Corpus. Which, yeah. So I didn't see a whole lot of potential there, but I have since I posted in there, I have been hit on by a lot of guys on my private email. It's been kind of cool by the guys that don't read because I have a picture.
I don't know if I still have it up. My avatar was me as a clown biting a tit of a play partner and doing needles in her breast. And I guess they just saw the breast and not the face of this guy biting it with a clown face. And so I'm getting I've gotten like three or four of these.
Hey, you want to hook up? Oh my God. And you look at their thing and they say they're straight uber dominance. And I'm like, I emailed one back and I'm like, do you mean?
Do you want me to fuck you? Because your thing says you're straight, but I mean, thank you very much. You know, someone was like, Hey, beautiful. Do you want to hook up?
And I'm like, thank you so much for calling me beautiful. That is amazing. I was feeling kind of insecure about myself. And thank you very much.
I'm very flattered, but I don't. I'm not really into guys, but thanks so much. But I have a dick if that's what you have. So they don't respond usually after that.
And I normally would not suggest anyone return any of those because, you know, obviously they didn't read a profile or find out what they thought they wanted. They just see a picture of a boob and they're like, I'm just going to say, Hey, baby. I'm a wiener monkey. See food.
Muffing. Big monkey. We just got Cathy thinking about dick. All day.
So, Cathy, finally, finally we have achieved a level of working together with our lovely listeners where they have produced a creative erotica that you will now be reading. Cathy, are you ready to read the group? Well, first let's tell the listeners on our FET Life group, perverted podcast on FET Life in our group. I started with a couple sentences of erotica and then people were supposed to come in and add two sentences each until we had a full, small erotica and then Cathy is now going to read that.
So this is our first of, I don't know how many, but hopefully our first and only here, Cathy will read our group. Tick. She felt anxious as the dim light from an outside street lamp, let her see enough of the table of play toys to know that this was not going to be just another dinner and movie on the couch night through the quiet shadows. She could almost hear her torment or breathing.
Strip was the command that made the hairs on the back of her head raise, her nipples hardened against her lacy bra and a flood of moisture between her legs. Mmm, this is it, she moaned through her ball gag. He held a knife to her back and slowly led her to the bed. Assume the position, he said.
She climbed on the bed on all fours with her ass in the air and her leg spread as he ran the robe across her limbs and tied her firmly into place. Once secure he began to tease her with a dull edge of blade against her clit, lightly thumping her opening with a knife sandal. Until that pussy drips on the sheets, nothing goes inside of you, he growled. A whimpering moan escaped her jaw, already beginning to ache from the gag, drool running down her gin and long thin strands as her body reacted to his words, rushing fresh heat and less through her loins.
Another moan escaped her lips through the gag. This was a kind of torture she yearned for, and he knew exactly what to say and due to make her wet. The lash of the belt across her ass got her attention with a biting sting that made her cunt quiver. I don't see a drip yet, my little whore, he taunted as he drew back his arm and released the harder second swat.
Taking a well-lubed large butt plug, he rammed it into her ass, stretching her around its heart shape, and her pussy gushed with an explosive squirt onto the bed. That's more like Daddy's little slut. And she smiled against her gag, closing her eyes in relief, basking in the warmth of that one simple compliment. It was all the submissive ever wanted to hear.
Oh right, don't pack up along here. Thank you so much for joining us on show 275. If this is one of your favorite podcasts, and let's face it, why would you be listening? If it weren't, log on to patreon.com forward slash pervertedpodcast and consider signing up for five bucks if you give a fuck.
Five little singles a month and you two can proudly say I support perverts. If you have something to say, ask a rant about right to us at pervertedpodcast.com and as always, don't forget to visit our FET LIFE group page under perverted podcast. Kathy, thank you for bringing that to this point, which I will now then continue to the next point. What the hell are you saying?
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