307: Feeling Numb? The Anesthesia of Awakening

What if the numbness you're feeling isn't a sign that something's wrong with you, but rather evidence that you are entering a new phase of life? In this deeply vulnerable episode, we explore a part of the human journey that rarely gets discussed—that uncomfortable space where you feel stuck, empty, and disconnected despite having "done all the work." Part of the reason this remains unspoken is that not everyone is called to go to these inner depths in this lifetime. This isn't about your first awakening or your introduction to shadow work. This is about what comes after, when the Divine calls you into a deeper dismantling that has nothing to do with external achievement and everything to do with remembering the truth of who you are. While being "chosen" to experience this phase feels like you've won the booby prize, the joke is on your ego—crossing into this threshold of numbness is the exact path to feeling enlivened with and through an infinite love that is you.In this episode, you'll discover:• Why emotional numbness functions as your internal anesthesia during a profound identity shift• What the soup stage of remembrance requires • What it means to be "chosen" for this difficult passage and why your sensitivity is actually your strength• The surprising connection between small escapes (like that evening buzz) and spiritual awakening• Simple practices that support you when everything feels like it's falling apart• Why comparing yourself to others during this phase completely misses the pointThis episode offers both validation and a roadmap for those brave enough to face the muck of transformation. Whether you arrived here through sudden crisis or slow unraveling, you'll find permission to honor exactly where you are—and an invitation to go even deeper if you're ready. Because sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is acknowledge that you're turning to soup, and trust the process.If you would like deeper insight and guidance during this phase, check out my private podcast series called Eyes Wide Open: https://michellebersell.com/eyes-wide-open/.