329:: BOOM: Becoming Older. Older Me. (A 4AM Download + Aging Out of Fucks Pt. 1)

BOOM didn’t come from a plan. It came at 4am during a thunder and lightning storm on 4/9/26—what I can only describe as a download. A clear name for something I’ve been moving through in this season of life. Becoming older. Older me. Not in age, but in awareness. In honesty. In the inability to keep performing what no longer fits. This episode is raw, unpolished, and real. I talk about: what BOOM is and how it came to me the shift that happens when you can’t “pretend” anymore why this season has been challenging in ways I don’t always have words for and Part 1 of Aging Out of Fucks: The Neuroscience of Why You Suddenly Can’t Pretend Anymore by Ellen Scherr, which gives language to a shift so many of us feel but can’t explain This isn’t about becoming bitter or difficult. It’s about becoming done with abandoning yourself to stay easy for everyone else. If you’re in that in-between space—where you know something in you is changing but you can’t fully name it yet—this episode is for you. Part 1 starts here.