379: ⏫️ Olivia A. revisits

🔸 1️⃣ Beyond committed. The art and science of figuring out your entire self 2️⃣ Deep down bad parts. It’s crazy the way kids are treated. 📌 1️⃣ Olivia Followed up: i will say-- i actually wish i talked more about this on the pod but the mdma aftermath isn't always a treat, there are actually some big feelings of turmoil afterwards, you kind of feel like your life is a mess for a couple weeks because stuff is hitting you. i felt that way and my friend also felt that way... but the ensuing clarity and breakthroughs are worth it it's like you're ripped open a bit and then enable to heal though the healing still requires a good amount of work or at least it did in my case, i found it hard to even do my job for a week, and i was constantly feeling like, how do i figure out this maze of feels?! james: Ive not experienced that negative side, but maybe I had less I was needing (or willing) to heal Olivia: i'm definitely willing to believe it's different for everyone my friend for instance, i dont think she would even say she did a lot of work to get to her breakthrough she was just a mess for 2 weeks and then had kind of a sudden realization 🔹 Parts: P: holds tension, clenching chest, hanging on to sense of dread. Needs manager not rush on to new shiney P: manager “if I don’t watch this how will I learn” a person glued to the screen P: tape playing, carrying the memories. I love my memories! P: managers are bad! Read the IFS book! 🎓 What I'd like to do differently: 1️⃣ Do differently? No; whatever got me here, to this place, with this person, makes me glad I did everything the way did. Cynical part's answer: quit Live IFS, start Live MDMA. 2️⃣ It’s been 2+ weeks of high stress / high stakes stuff for me. I've been increasingly concerned about the effects on my health, multiple ailments reappearing. Today was *my* do whatever day, finally vacation day. I just lounged around, fed the crows, stretched a lot, ate what & when I wanted, skipped exercise (and that ~hour of call prep I normally do). So this was fitting. When I start getting sick, my “figure it out” part takes over, researching like mad, making a project out of it, documenting everything, reviewing old notes. But lately I've been working with it more, taking it seriously, and allowing that process to complete. Then I actually arrive at “I've read enough, made enough todos and appts, time for that part to rest. Let's try calm, space, and see what intuition (now more informed) brings. ----- 🗳 Send anonymous feedback to James: Feedback Form 😀Come chat with us: Discord 🙏PLEASE help Internal Family Systems reach more people. Subscribe, give a rating, or comment here: Itunes YouTube How to leave a review - iPhone 👉 Find your ACE score with this one-page questionnaire