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EPISODE · Mar 6, 2026 · 41 MIN

68. I Was Pulling the Rope. My Body Was Pulling Back Harder.

from Courageously Expressed | Post-Traumatic Purpose Reclamation · host Chelsea Bartell-Smith

You've been fighting your body for years.Controlling the food. Pushing through the workouts. Managing the schedule. Holding everything together.And the harder you pull — the harder it pulls back.Amanda Rurik thought she was doing everything right. Mother. Business owner. Clean eating. Supplements. A type-A work ethic she wore like a badge. What she didn't know was that her body was quietly tallying every skipped meal, every sleepless night, every emotion she swallowed to keep moving.Then her second baby came. And the rope snapped.In this episode Amanda gets raw about the moment debilitating anxiety forced her to stop white-knuckling her health — and start actually listening to it. What she found wasn't weakness. It wasn't a disorder. It was a body that had been screaming in the only language it knew.We get into:The secret internal impacts anxiety has The moment two doctors told her she was "fine" and she knew they was more to her storyWhy trying to force symptoms away makes your body grip them harderThe at-home hair test that revealed what a decade of bloodwork missedWhat it looks like to stop fighting your body and finally start living in itThis is for the woman who has been pulling the rope her whole life and wondering why she's exhausted.Work with Luxury Hormone Specialist Amanda: ⁠@amandarurikReady to do this work?→ ⁠Work with me 1:1⁠ — for the woman ready to get her brain and body on board with the vision she's been carrying.→ Join ⁠Confidence Mastery⁠— for the woman who's wobbly as a newborn deer on a skateboard when it comes to owning her value & gifts.→ Join the ⁠Courage Container⁠— for the woman who knows she desires more from herself & her life and wants the clarity, support, and growth to go all in.→ ⁠Join the Courage Portal⁠ — tools & support that build the Courageous ASF infrastructure to sustain your brilliance, authenticity, and emotional mastery.

You've been fighting your body for years.Controlling the food. Pushing through the workouts. Managing the schedule. Holding everything together.And the harder you pull — the harder it pulls back.Amanda Rurik thought she was doing everything right. Mother. Business owner. Clean eating. Supplements. A type-A work ethic she wore like a badge. What she didn't know was that her body was quietly tallying every skipped meal, every sleepless night, every emotion she swallowed to keep moving.Then her second baby came. And the rope snapped.In this episode Amanda gets raw about the moment debilitating anxiety forced her to stop white-knuckling her health — and start actually listening to it. What she found wasn't weakness. It wasn't a disorder. It was a body that had been screaming in the only language it knew.We get into:The secret internal impacts anxiety has The moment two doctors told her she was "fine" and she knew they was more to her storyWhy trying to force symptoms away makes your body grip them harderThe at-home hair test that revealed what a decade of bloodwork missedWhat it looks like to stop fighting your body and finally start living in itThis is for the woman who has been pulling the rope her whole life and wondering why she's exhausted.Work with Luxury Hormone Specialist Amanda: ⁠@amandarurikReady to do this work?→ ⁠Work with me 1:1⁠ — for the woman ready to get her brain and body on board with the vision she's been carrying.→ Join ⁠Confidence Mastery⁠— for the woman who's wobbly as a newborn deer on a skateboard when it comes to owning her value & gifts.→ Join the ⁠Courage Container⁠— for the woman who knows she desires more from herself & her life and wants the clarity, support, and growth to go all in.→ ⁠Join the Courage Portal⁠ — tools & support that build the Courageous ASF infrastructure to sustain your brilliance, authenticity, and emotional mastery.

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You've been fighting your body for years.Controlling the food. Pushing through the workouts. Managing the schedule. Holding everything together.And the harder you pull — the harder it pulls back.Amanda Rurik thought she was doing everything right....

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