#82 and another and another and another

remember that drive through the old sleepy south for seventeen hours in the car we dissolved for eons in silence sometimes and other times shouting over the roar of the road and the ruin spinning by the road made shimmering by the endless dripping of the wet orange sun and both of us somewhere between loving and hating each other which didn’t stop us from everything in between and twenty three years later everything pains me just a little bit more and now i think i know what you meant when you said nobody knows what love really is because when you know what it all means that’s the moment when you die and when you said love me now i told you i wasn’t ready to die just yet rachel where are you now i wish i would have tried i dreamt about you last night you were the wallflower dying just like the last time except this time i was the one who couldn’t stop crying bhagiti 7.10.07 perrysburg, oh