I’m Moving Home. I Hope I Feel Like Myself Again. - #94

I’m packing to leave Los Angeles, giving away clothes, and trying to decide what’s worth taking home to Guatemala. But getting my belongings sorted hasn’t made me feel settled. I’m anxious, sleeping badly, and watching the routines I cared about slip. I’ve barely trained this month, I’m not eating enough, and I don’t feel as strong as I used to. Part of me hopes getting home will bring relief. I want to start school, build a routine, and set up a home gym where I can rebuild my strength—and hopefully get my dad training with me. Those are the things I’m looking forward to. But right now, I’m still here, packing and hoping this decision is worth it.