A black sheep & their typical rant.

Ever felt like the black sheep? In this week's episode I explain why labeling myself that and viewing it as a negative, made me attract people in my life that ONLY saw me that way. They would see me as I saw myself. Different, dramatic, lazy, crazy, sloppy, clumsy... to name a few. So, when a friend would point out these traits as "faults" my subconscious mind would rebel! I truly didn't want to be this way OR even labeled at all! BUT this was my own doing. For years I would reinvent myself, which I found to be quite easy since I was born under a new moon (more on that later). Over and over changing myself trying to find what kind of person people wanted me to be so I wouldn't get hurt. But again and again, this would backfire. Now, I finally stopped trying to find the "forever mask"...I realized committing fully to who I am IS the forever mask. Sobriety came first; good friends left some new friends came and left QUICKLY...BUT all that remained were the ones who have always loved me for who I am. Thus, now I can handle push back from my core people in my life because I know the relationship is built off of respect and truth. I have boundaries and respect the ones presented to me. Anyways, this episode is the most typical BLACK SHEEP thing I've ever done. It can seem quite contradictive. But I see it as acceptance.