A guy inside my head

The move, part 2 with musical reflections [press play] song: “Hudson” [music & lyrics c. Trevor Exter - all rights reserved] got a guy inside my head who doesn't like me can't stand my type, my band, my sign but you seem to handle me just fine I've got the wings, just need the wheels show me something something that'll make me feel I seek to belong but also to control. I want delight but also health. Tension much? I want to feel safe but also powerful, so cello is the perfect instrument for me because you know it's never gonna go perfectly. I got a love the size of the sun that could boil the ocean rose above I've not, no prizes won see I'm just one your mind is a window, body is the sky can't live without the one without the other you won't ask why We do the long tones to make the sound warm and fluid. I've also been dusting off my bounce matrix - that thing is hard to execute in real time. Honestly, most of my practicing is to address my own feelings, an effort to feel safe in the face of potential mistakes and to make a compelling (i.e. powerful) sound. We forget that the cello drill is not taught so that we can feel good, but so that we can do the cello job. But what if... why keep it to yourself can't be someone else don't keep it to yourself talk is cheap inside a shell What if, when we played the cello we got to feel the way a listener wants to feel when they hear the cello? (warm, emotional, thrilled) What if we could benefit from our own musical medicine? I got a g-d follows me around, saving my hide though I tried slippin away you know it ain't fake tonight here in this house of love got to do things right some day I'll run clear in the light That's my goal, which partly explains why I've done so little performing lately. Not only is cello hard and awkward to play, but booking and promoting gigs can often run counter to the real work of music, which among other things is healing. why keep it to yourself can't be someone else don't keep it to yourself talk is cheap inside a shell In order to heal a listener, the musician has to first heal themselves. And I've been engaged in some deep healing of late. But the songs are about ready to burst. They've been doing their job for me, so I'm starting to think about trying them out on you. I'm looking forward to a release (it's still very far away). But I will be booking a show soon. Promise. Thanks for all your notes last week. Big ups, keep em coming. Love, Trevor . . . If you appreciate my work, it’s in these other places too. Please help it spread by sharing it: * Listen to the “Trevor Exter Playlist” on Spotify * Hear 18 episodes of: "Play It Like It's Music" * You can hire me to score your piece. * Or I can produce your podcast. * Direct support @ Patreon * Follow: IG \ TW \ FB * trevorexter.com Get full access to Play it Like It's Music at playitlikeitsmusic.substack.com/subscribe