A Happier Hanzi Doesn’t Draw a Podcast Audience

Recorded through June 4th-June7th-gradually going into mental decline-podcast numbers being lower when Im not as angry-being social vs being alone terminally online-reality shows wrestling fandom-fighting off panic attacks-testing myself to see if I can be out social for more than once a week since Ive gotten used to isolation-having to be in the right mind set to do comedy-past trauma plays into current situations-family dynamics-bored w online storylines-hive mind mentality-growing up not thinking for myself-being topic dejour-brief music talk-Sauce Walka vs Drake-always incorporating women in industry beefs-current era not ready mentally for fall out after new edge lord era-Meg thee Stallion denouncing wifey life-Online discourse during PRIDE-gimmicked wins for positive cope-Dame Dash vs Jay Z-Bloodline vs the Elitw folklore Oba Femi-bullying in wrestling-Mick Foley-CM Punk-washed up celebs pulling out of WH 250 Fan Fest-gimmicked Ls-Ana vs Hasan fake feud-bored with forced content farming exploiting genuine plight-Jubilee debates-tokens-on surface conspiracies-Platner scandals-waiting a day before doing more podcast rants because irrational thoughts seep in-mental health talk-vultures threatened by me being happier-social anxiety-being vulnerable but keeping my guard up-never being in the present-forcing ppl into my life-Self sabotage-being in competition-industry drama-worrying about inheriting family’s worst traits-the price of fame-assisted suicide-blaming myself-fighting off urge to post irrationally-hate giving into my feelings-being reminded of high school shit-not wanting to use mental strength for evil-ppl obsessing over my moves-not wanting to be lured into incel movements-incentive for worst impulses-society getting worse-anything I do makes ppl hate me-rather convey my irrational thoughts then self destruct-main character syndrome-Hacks tv show-I can die happy knowing I had deep convos and didn’t come a worst version of myself-you will reflect or get reactionary hearing my rants-not going in depth w same political discourse-the fake left finding more ways to justify allowing white supremacists in movement-seeing the overview of the bigger picture-gimmicked martyrs-NXT Dynamite,Smackdown TNA and Collision recaps