'A whole new level of panic attack' Listener question

I think ever since I discovered your teaching I discovered this knowing that everything is ok, even or especially when I was experiencing very difficult situations and feelings. Even in the middle of a breakdown or panicattack something inside of me remained calm and knew that I was ok. (this might sound like spiritual bypassing but it really didn't feel that way at all).Last week I discovered a whole new level of panic attacks. I felt like I was going to choke (I'm not sure if that's the correct word in english. I am looking for the word of not being able to breath and dying from it). I was so scared that this would never stop, and that I would have to spend the rest of my life in this hell. Also it felt like I had to control those feelings, because if I wouldn't I probably would actually choke because of the panic-attack.This feels very much like something I shouldn't write. I guess I feel very exposed..And I am not sure what my question is. I just feel like I have lost my inner compass and have no idea how to go on from here. I would love to hear your perspective on this..