Addicted to Gaslighting

I am addicted to it all. Lies and truths. I am a master of data. I love the truth. I have become addicted to the pain it brings. When women leave me and say it’s me. The truth is it is me. I am retarded and have an addiction to torturing myself. The gaslighting fuels my spirit for more. The lies to save face only ignites me to want more. I scream my truths and it goes on I am beat for expressing myself. I am ostracized for not lying and saying it a better way. They are gonna continue to beat me, rape me, buck me until I conform to their demands. I am a beast and I am in my natural element is what society fails to comprehend. Or do they ? For they know of what they do. They orchestrated it all to watch me do what I do. I am the pet dragon 🐉 they feed me with drama 🎭. They know I love it all because I got it from my momma !