Alcohol and Trauma with Nikki Edwards

Tribe Sober - inspiring an alcohol-free life! My guest today has an inspirational story of recovery.  After a difficult start in life and a decade of drug taking Nikki began her recovery journey.  Her childhood was traumatic and Nikki turned to drugs at an early age. In spite of her efforts to develop a career in dance and drama her addiction deepened during her 20's. She checked into her first rehab in her late 20’s and began the long journey to recovery – a journey that would lead her to discover her purpose in life. In this episode Nikkis childhood was not an easy one – her parents drank and they also moved around the country a lot, which resulted in her changing schools 7 times. Unsurprisingly she felt like an outsider and struggled to fit in – never feeling comfortable in her own skin as she put it She was certainly an early starter and tasted her first beer at the age of 9 and at 13 she was drinking and smoking marijuana. Due to her parents drinking habits Nikki felt more of a pull towards hard drugs – and at the age of 16 her boyfriend introduced her to Mandrax and Crack Cocaine. With her current knowledge of addiction Nikki is able to trace her substance abuse back to her childhood trauma – as she puts it “her addiction started long before she picked up a drug” Many of you will be familiar with the work of Dr Gabor Mate who has done extensive research into childhood trauma and the link with addiction – he says Trauma is a psychic wound that hardens you psychologically that then interferes with your ability to feel, to grow and to develop. It pains you and now you’re acting out of pain. Nikki also understands that she was using drugs as a coping mechanism as she was unable to regulate her emotions. Her search for belonging began in earnest at the age of 17 when she left school – she rebelled against anything structured as her education had left her feeling like a failure She studied dance and drama and got involved in the club scene where she felt a sense of belonging for the first time. She was organising trance parties, making good money and everybody loved her. Now and again Nikki would try to get a regular job but it never worked out and just confirmed her belief that she didn’t fit into the “normal” world. At the age of 28 she got pregnant and knew that this would have to be her turning point – however motherhood caused her to feel a lot of guilt and shame and in fact she stepped up her drug use to cope. When her son was 1 Nikki lost custody which reaffirmed her feelings of inadequacy. This proved to be her rock bottom which was a catalyst for her long road to recovery – starting with her first rehab – at this first rehab she just felt very angry and it would take several years and 5 more rehabs until she finally came into recovery We agreed that rehab was pointless if you were not ready – being “sent” to rehab does not work and too much rehab results in being institutionalised – never being able to function in the outside world. Six months into her final rehab which was a one year program Nikki had what she describes as a spiritual awakening – a feeling that the years of hell she had been through had given her a purpose. She already had all the tools from her various rehab stays but finally began to select the tools that she felt were right for her – we agreed that we all have to “do the work” but of course our work will vary depending on our background. She regained custody of her son and leaned into the role of being a mother Nikki also began to developing her career as a recovery coach by working with David Collins, the founder of Ubuntu Addiction Community. I interviewed David for the podcast a couple of weeks ago so watch this space to learn more about his work. Nikki is a recovery coach herself and these days she is trains other coaches and is involved in the amazing Pocket Rehab initiative. We agreed that rehab is one thing but coping with the outside world is a very individual journey – and it is our job as coaches to “meet you where you are at” You can find out more and connect with Nikki on her Facebook page Nikki Edwards Recovery Coaching or on her website which is nikkiedwards.com  Tribe Sober's Spring Challenge starts on 20th March 66 alcohol free days – supported by daily emails and 66 mini podcasts It's great fun as we put everyone on the Sober Spring Bus on Day one and they all travel through the 66 alcohol free days together – its always a great vibe on that bus as everyone encourages and supports each other – so don’t miss the bus Sign up today – just go to tribesober.com and click on Sober Spring 2022 If you’d like copy of our PDF “Sobriety Battleplan” – packed full of trackers and charts to get you started and keep you on track just email [email protected] More info For an affordable monthly subscription you can join Tribe Sober - read about the benefits of membership and sign up HERE To access our website click HERE If you would like a free copy of our "Annual Tracker" or our e-book "66 Days to Sobriety" please email [email protected] If you would like to come to our Saturday afternoon Zoom Cafe as a guest and meet our community just email [email protected] Episode Sponsor           This episode is sponsored by the Tribe Sober Membership Program.  If you want to change your relationship with alcohol then               sign up today           Read more about our 7-step program and subscribe HERE           Book a Chat with Sue to find out if our membership would help you - email her on [email protected]          Help us to spread the word! 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