'Am I ready for a subliminal?' Listener question

I have a question about subliminals. Is there a right or wrong time for this? I started listening to your work half a year ago and it was so scary and over my head that I stopped. Then I came back later and now there seems to be less inner resistance or protection.Can it be too soon? I am endlessly curious but how do I know that I am ready for it?  Also, if I spend this money on subliminals (I am a social worker and a single mother, so it’s quite an amount for me) am I really sure that I want nothing in return? Don’t I instantly want a change while knowing this attitude send me to hell and prison the last months? The subliminals would be some kind of blind trust which really feels right. Can you help me find out if it’s right for me?