American Her-Story

American Her-StoryBy Maureen MuldoonIf I tell you of my heart,I should tell you of my home,The places I have lived,And the land that I have roamed.Through the trauma and the dramas,The triumphs and the grief,It's the truth I'll be confessing,In hopes of some relief.See, my heart is not an organ,It's the address where I live,The tribes in which I travel,The things I can't forgive.Like the lack of understandingAnd compassion and decor,While America goes weepingLike a two-buck jilted w***e.In the land of milk and honey,With its sunny apple pie,Little hands were in the White House,Serving porn and lies.I was feeling all conflictedAnd evicted from my flag,'Cause it didn't seem to noticeThat my child was in drag.And he needs to use the bathroom,But he doesn't fit the box.So he's painted like a demon,And he's hunted by the Fox.He's not trying to be a problem.He just needs to take a piss.No one's welcome to the men's roomwho's not male or white or cis.And the common man is restless,And the news does not seem sound.When we're building walls and runningAll the good folks out of town.And I can't blame my CountryTill I tell you of myselfAnd confess my own infringementsLike a good elf on the shelf.Of the salty shore of Jersey,Springsteen Country I was raised,where we were born to runIn the good old USA.But we learned to keep a distance,Smirk like sly comedians.For the boys who wouldn't be brokenWould be bullied into men.On the playground where the sissyWould be tortured in pure violence,And my Christian heartWould learn to grow a tolerance for silence.And I raised my hand in question'Cause I thought it made no sense.How could God not love Her children?Why would God put up a fence?I felt my good blood boilWhen I thought I'd seen enough.But church bells rocked me back to sleep,See, the king was in the buff.And the hands that sought protectionThrough confessions never heard,Were the same hands pressed in prayerand ordained worthy of the word.How strongly they admonishjust to amputate the truth.Forgive me, Father, I have sinnedAnd find no comfort in your booth.But you don't represent my stories,And you've clocked me in your myths,Where I am cast as w***e or virginTo negate my other gifts.And your Gods have all been male,Like the presidents and popes,And the female wage is shy of truth,And justice has no hope.If you want to show compassion,How 'bout we start with that?How 'bout we teach the childrenThat a pussy is a cat?Still, soothe your sister's sorrowsAnd say, "Please don't pick your scabs.Let's ride it out; it's no big deal,So your body's up for grabs."And then we all remember,'Cause the memory is there,The glance, the gaze,Unwelcome ways got tangled in our hair.The moment we were branded,that summed us up as game.Not whole and holy woman,But two boobs, a hole, and shame.But cover cost for the viagraTo ensure you come correct.Withhold her pills, deny her thrills,And leave her with the check.Send hearts filled with dictations,Though she's still illiterate.Underwires, boost them higher,Make some money off that tit.Post her face in all the tabloids,Burn her daily, brand her twice,And ensure it doesn't matter'Cause she's nasty and not nice.Point the finger over thereWhere education is withheld,And the threat of rapeAdorned the scape and lives unparalleled.But let's not take a tally here.Let's just drink, and all get drunk.When suffering depression, dear,Blame it on the time of month.Let's not take a true assessment,Let's not hold it up to light.Let's not be too bold, for we've been told,We do not have the rights.Don't put lipstick on a dead girl,Don't string up your pretty prose.And pretend you're doing somethingTo relieve her of the blows.But when I vote,I'll cast my arrowTo protect my shifty fate,So the owner of my bodyIs no longer for debate.Raising daughters with the confidenceto feel that she is ableIs a joke if we've leftno empty seat about the table.Raising daughters to have courageAnd to truly find her voiceIs drained of all validityWhen she has not the choice.And if you want the truth,You'll need to knowThe places where we live,You need to know the traumaOf the f***s we did not give.You will need to look still deeperTo the words you didn't sayAnd the roles that were forbidden,The inequality of pay,The constant degradation,The branding and the burn,The higher educationNever offered, never earned.From a country of warmongersWho still fear our bloody show,We've landscaped our mother's natureTo ensure she will not grow.In a land of opportunity,Her script is sealed with vows,And the beat, it goes on banging,To the slaughtering of cows.So my sweet, my dear, my Valentine,My fellow countrymen,It's not the type of love noteYou were hoping I would send.But our rivers all run red,And our children are all blue.And You've made a lot of promisesBut haven't yet come through.And I got a funny feelingThat the ceiling won't be smashed,And the house will go on burning,Leaving nothing in the ash.And we'll buckle from the weightOf our own domestic violence.Where we once stood brave,We will surely fall the silenced.But before we all hit bottomFrom the weight of all the lies,Here's a supersize of truthBeing served without the fries.Though the her-story has been twisted,tampered, broken down, and hacked,There's a swelling of a new one,And it says, "We won't go back."So we're gathering in packs,And we're taking to the street,And we're linking arms in unityAgainst the madman's tweets.And she is rising like a sun,And she's brilliant, and she's bright.And she's coming 'round the bend,And she's gonna make it right.She is stronger now than ever,She's gathering some steam,Has been trained for just this hour—You can hear her engines scream.And the Dalai Lama notes,As he bowed his head in sermon,"Let this broken world be savedby the modern Western woman."From New Jersey to Atlanta,To the sunnyside of Queens,To the studios of L.A.And the whole Las Vegas scene.From the noble tower of WillisTo New Orleans Masquerade,And the 50 states of disgraceWhere a woman is underpaid.You can hear her humming softly,You can hear her closing in.She will rise, oh don't you worry,She will sanctify our sins.And the old will surely crumble,And the flood will wash it down,'Cause she will not be persuadedWhen they lay their money down.And she does not come with fear,And she does not beckon war,And she does not seem to answerIf you call her b***h or w***e.She is meeting in the back room,And her counsel is divine.Arise, my sister and my brothers,Arise, let's go, it's time.From the mountains to the prairies,To the oceans white with foam,Arise, my dear America,It's time to save our home.Love, Maur This is a public episode. 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