Are My Recovered Memories Real? Part 1: MDMA & The Man Wh...

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Ed couldn’t sleep. It all started when his daughter nearly died on an escalator. The frayed attention started then too. So did the fits of rage. As exhaustion & problems piled up, Ed’s life slowly spiraled out of control. Nothing he tried had worked. Nothing helped him sleep or made him less angry. Finally, as a last-ditch effort, Ed tried psychedelic therapy. But the experience didn’t cure his sleeplessness, it just handed him a mystery: A recovered memory that might explain everything.If… it was real.Chapters(00:00) Intro. (03:03) The escalator.(04:48) Fits of rage. (07:51) Plotting the end. (10:10) Recovering the memory. (13:31) Was it real? (15:27) Why is the memory repeating? (17:42) Next time. NotesTheme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field.Other music: We used the tracks “Lost Place Atmospheres 002,” “5 vor 12,” “Lost Place Atmospheres 001,” & “Shadows In The Dark,” by Sascha Ende. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license.

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