At Age 29 I Realized Perfectionism Was A Lie - What Will Turning 30 Cost Me ? | Episode 1

29 hit different. A new city, an ADHD diagnosis, therapists, the gym, boundaries, oversharing, a yucky dating life, and a version of myself I kept trying to perfect, only for it to never feel like enough.In this episode I share my experiences with all of it. The gap between what people see and what is actually happening. The exhausting performance of having it together. The overthinking. The moment you start asking yourself, when is enough, enough? Where is the line? And will we ever actually cross it?I used to think perfectionism meant I had high standards. Having an African mother kind of engrains it in you. What I didn’t realize is that it was quietly keeping me stuck and I have felt stuck for a long time. Even with this podcast. You have no idea how long it took me to actually do this.The beauty of being human is that we are allowed to be messy. We are allowed to make mistakes. We are allowed to show up before we are ready.So here I am. Showing up.This is Episode 1 of Ellah’s Confessions. Come for the confessions. Stay for the chaos. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit ellahsconfessions.substack.com