Bad bleeps to bad relationships...mma drama

I actually don't want to talk about my abuse anymore or the wandering spirit that is my husband because I seriously want to file for divorce. I thought I'd accept him after our separate ways but it's the age old adage of he's a fucking pig. My mother was a fucking creep that abused drugs as her form of porn. If I have to hear from these pornographic asshats one more time 5 by t No. I do love my husband Michael but I'm starting to age before my youth because I had babies right after I graduated Harvard. Which was 6 years old. We were on the NASA ship but it takes a certain kind of maturity that adolescents don't have and it was complicated being around Michael who wanted to be my father figure while raising his children and understanding complicated procedures and memorandum that most grown women have problems with so I'd say my true age is about 53.I love my husband for all he's given me but impregnating a child has got me riffed. But my mother destroyed all my childhood relationships and I forgave for all of it and I carried her through. So fuck it fuck it fuck it all and condemn her. I never got to make mistakes when you were always a miserable 😖 pos*?. But God is my salvation and I want to carry him through. I hate my fucking self for letting you go. There's so many people I wish I could say that to but I hate your fucking guts and you make me sick. If I ever hear Vicodin one more time in your derogatory language. I think I'm going to scream from all the motherfucking pornography you put in my head.So here I stand and again I say am I motherfucking pig or a monster 💩💀💩😭💀💀💀💀💀💀