Bad dream and terrible luck with doctors continue but Paula gave me hope

I think I know where this dream come from the combination of when I was talking with two women on flights one on the way to a delayed connection flight to Orlando and then the return non stop flight to st Louis one was getting married and the other was married. A beautiful lady at podfest who came from the same place of my delayed connection flight at Atlanta my struggle meeting another lady to marry. I dreamed I passed away alone not in my apartment but somewhere else it would take a long time before I was found but I'm already in heaven watching. But in the dream I'm wondering why? Why the dam struggle?? I was supposed to be married and happy hopefully there's still hope for me but I still hate being a widower.You know what nevermind about helping a depression or PTSD study ! Had a screening appointment yesterday at 2pm my only open time but he called me about 2 hours late when games was getting ready to start then they called me back only to tell me I would be forced to wait until next week Monday I'm sorry not just no but hell no! I'm all for helping out but not when service is this bad!Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/bigdcountry/support Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.