Bad Inside

I'm thinking of the past too much King of the class too much Linking the paths and structures The future I cast a glance too much It passes by too much I cannot pass this juncture I long for where the wind's not blowing The air is stale and the rain's not flowing I long to see the grass not growing I want to seize the day but I can't hold on I'm dissatisfied I just can't fake a smile when it’s bad inside I can't be pacified while the sands of time simply pass me by I'm halted by my heart too much I get entrapped too much I'm far too fond of darkness This world needs a firmer hand too much I'm in the stands too much I'm far too far from calmness I open doors that won't stop closing Hold onto dreams I can't see unfolding I crawl out every day half broken I hate each face I find myself clothed in