Beauty behind the Phat

Excuse the background noise. Yall know I am so random and go forward being okay with being open. I was just expressing that I was a true Big Beautifull Women (BBW). This was just a term because I could not see the beauty behind my phat. I was okay with being the sidekick to everything, now the glow up is real and now I have been separated from the sidekick roll to now being the stand-alone person.   I spent more money and time covering almost everything trying to look good instead of getting to root of the problem. Realizing the instabilities of life, being so dependent on foods and extrenal things to be okay with being unstable in all attributes of life.  Yall know your girl cannot talk, I remember when I didn't even like the sound of my own voice. This is a great feat to overcome because now having voice is powerful.  We have to find our voice in any key possible.  I was listening to something on T. V. and a football player I have to go back and my research his name; however, he stated so plainly that he suffered from imposter syndrome. Retreating back old patterns of believing we don't deserve, the greater than.  As my guy Flavor Flav would say don't believe the hype: Public Enemy.  This is what we are!!!!!!