I'm pretty comfortable with a lot of kind of past insecurities. I used to be bothered by the fact that I don't necessarily remember things easily. I have to make an effort like names, but I mean everyone has a problem with names. That's not an excuse for anything.
Or just information. I'm very visual and I have to remember things a certain way to remember them. I used to feel insecure of my accent. That's funny as that is now.
I used to be insecure of the fact that I'm nowhere near being the most intelligent people in any given room. I know that I can't think very deeply, but I have trouble enunciating what I think about. And I'm really not the best at just making sense in general. It's something I've had to work on and it's something I still have to work on.
I used to be insecure of the fact that I had terrible state fright. I've worked on it a lot and it still remains. I used to be insecure of the fact that at least before, still now, I have very clear physical reactions to stress or feeling threatened. When I feel like when I want to fight someone or when I get extremely mad at someone, my body will start doing things I don't want it to do.
That makes any sense. So all these insecurities, there's two options. You can either feel bad about them or live with it. So why not just live with it?
If there's something you can improve on next stage fright, then work on it. That's what I've been trying to do and that's what I keep trying to do. But there's some things that you're just not going to change. I'm not the most intelligent person and I know that.
And I might still have some insecurity about it that's more deeply rooted, but I don't feel like it's a problem anymore. I don't feel like I have to compensate for it. I will keep on improving it if I can and I will keep on learning things because I know that I'm extremely curious and that I have to feed that. In order to feel good about life and about myself.
But I don't think there's a point in just wallowing in hatred of ones insecurities because the only option there is to living a good life is to see insecurities and become okay with them. They're part of who you are. Again, if you can improve on them, improve on them. Maybe if you feel like you're not as intelligent as you could be, maybe just reading more.
Learning new vocabulary might help you. For me, for example, learning new vocabulary helps me in non-sitting. What I'm thinking a lot better and arguing or discussing a lot more efficiently. And I've not been reading a whole lot lately and I can feel it when I listen to people like Jordan Peterson, why I listen to college courses, even though I'm in college, I want to listen to really intelligent people give college courses or reading audiobooks or listening to audiobooks.
I can feel myself finding words a lot easier and I haven't been doing that and I need to do that more. But yeah, I just don't feel like there's any point in hating ones insecurities and it's not feeling you can help. Don't get me wrong, I still. There's something that I feel insecure about.
But when I do, there's the biggest thing I feel insecure about right now. I'm actively working on. I'm getting to the point. I'm saying, okay, I don't like that.
I might be like this, so I'm working on getting like this. I'm not just in, it might not be completely healthy. I'm still kind of okay with how I am. I'm still okay with the aspect of insecurity that is how I am right now.
But since I've found that I have this insecurity that I wasn't aware of before, now I'm more actively working on it. So yeah, thanks for listening. Have a great day.