BPD and Depression: Self-Loathing, Hopelessness, and Feeling Worthless

Have you ever been so used to feeling awful that you genuinely thought you were fine?In this episode of The BPD Bunch, Xannie Raf, Mo, Céline, and Madhurima sit down to talk about depressivity in borderline personality disorder (BPD), including the experiences they didn’t always recognize as depression at the time.They talk about feeling completely numb while somehow still being in unbearable emotional pain, partying and using substances to avoid being alone with their thoughts, staying in bed for weeks, intense self-neglect, believing they were fundamentally worthless, and even convincing themselves that people only liked them because they had somehow “tricked” them. They also explore why depression sometimes became more obvious once the louder BPD behaviors began to quiet down.In this episode:* BPD and depression* BPD depressivity* Feeling empty or numb with BPD* Shame, worthlessness and self-hatred* Quiet BPD and internalized depression* Reckless behavior and substance use* Suicidal thoughts and hopelessness* BPD recovery and recognizing emotionsIf you’ve ever looked functional from the outside while privately wondering how much longer you could keep doing this, you may recognize yourself in this conversation.This season, we’re discussing BPD through the lens of the Alternative Model of Personality Disorders (AMPD). To meet criteria for BPD in this model, a person must have difficulties in at least two areas of personality functioning (Criterion A): identity, self direction, empathy, or intimacy, along with four or more pathological personality traits (Criterion B): emotional lability, anxiousness, separation insecurity, and depressivity (which are sub-traits of negative affectivity), impulsivity and risk taking (sub-traits of disinhibition), and hostility (a sub-trait of antagonism).In the first two episodes of the season, Dr. Carla Sharp, Dr. Frank Yeomans, and Dr. Alex Stein explain what the AMPD is, how it changes from the current categorical model, and how the BPD diagnosis is changing. In case you missed it, here are the links:Watch part 1 hereWatch part 2 here___🌟 Love what we do? Your support fuels these important conversations on BPD and mental health. Consider joining our Patreon community to help us continue this valuable work and unlock exclusive content. Every contribution makes a difference! 🌈✨ 🔗 Support us on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/thebpdbunch ________About Us: The BPD bunch is a YouTube talk show, featuring a panel of people who are in functional recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder. Each week we discuss BPD-related topics to help give you insights into the different ways BPD can be expressed in someone’s life. We also cover the different paths we followed on our recovery journeys to give you hope and direction for your own ❤️ Thank you for being on this journey of healing with us!________Disclaimer:This video is for education only and is not meant to provide professional medical advice, diagnosis or treatment.