Build a Clubhouse

quickly assembled this in the middle of the night after waking up covered in sweat lol. made up alot of the words as i was going and i made the beat while mostly asleep however... when i envisioned the entire song as a finished product. idk it seemed like something i could stand behind :s im gonna die this year - Also I keep never finishing a song idea after the initial 30-40 minute creation .. This is due to being in a multi year WAR wjth adderall ABUSE addiction. Abuse that is so far from enjoyable anymore it’s literally at this point I actually have started to understand the only reason I do it now is to finish off what is most likely health wise one very lost cause of a person . It’s not self harm it’s hardly even addiction. I’m most in the mind This is extended suicide make no mistake about it this is a daily anxiety over my now very VERY real health complications. It leave me driven to a point I feel is going to take everything to crawl out of - I don’t know where I would be without my mom she is the reason I’m still here right now I’m going to come back and apply myself with music. I have a deep passion for it and don’t think I could truly forgive myself for not putting some legitimate work and tact into it. I will learn self discipline and I will learn control