Came for the Party, Stayed for the Avoidance

I’ve struggled with addiction. And for a long time, I thought the answer was simply to stop.But the more I looked beneath the surface, the more I realized there was something much deeper driving the pattern.Addiction wasn’t something that randomly appeared in my life. It was connected to wounds, coping mechanisms and generational patterns that had been passed down long before I ever understood them.When I finally stopped asking, “What’s wrong with me?” and started asking, “What am I actually trying to feel, avoid, escape or find?”, everything began to change.Getting to the root gave me a completely different understanding of my behaviour. And once I understood the driving force behind the pattern, I could finally begin to choose something different.This episode is a raw look at my own experience with addiction, the generational wound underneath it, and what happened when I stopped fighting the behaviour long enough to understand why I needed it in the first place.Because sometimes freedom doesn’t come from trying harder to break the pattern.It comes from finally understanding why the pattern was there.Ready to dive deeper. Check out “Coming Home”, link belowhttps://houseofwolves11.squarespace.com/coursesNeed something more 1:1? Book your session today https://app.squareup.com/appointments/book/4wgi8zw35gwjo8/L9MQNHXMC82VQ/start This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit houseofwolves11.substack.com