Can Anything Save Me from This Sadness? Man Does Years of Psychedelic Therapy to Treat Lifelong Depression

When Eric was 10, he asked God to save him. Not from hell. From life. Because his father terrified him, his faith confused him, & there was pain inside he didn’t understand & wouldn’t go away. So Eric spent nearly 30 years trying to fix himself.Marriage, money, sex, drugs, spirituality, & psychedelic therapy…Could anything take away his pain?Chapters(00:00) Intro clip(02:32) Eric cries out to god. (03:43)  Church of spies.(05:48) The incident with his father he wrote down. (10:07)  “Traces” of sexual abuse.(12:05) Chronic depression since childhood. (13:20) Eric gets married. (18:35) Becoming a “sinner.”(21:55) The OxyContin incident. (25:25) The mushroom trip that changed things. (31:38) A new church, a spiritual world.  (35:06) Peyote vs mushrooms. (37:17) Ayahuasca. (43:48) What has Eric learned?Secret Wilderness' theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field.