Can you fall in love instantly?

i've got a question for you and it's a good one is it possible to fall in love kind of like instantly and have this just fabulous relationship that lasts for about three months and then it just goes away and then you go years thinking about her and i'm not talking five years i'm not talking 10 years i'm talking 50 years 50 years no contact whatsoever at all zero contact no idea where she's at what she's doing who she's married to you get married you get married once you get married twice three times all of them fail but through this whole process of having three marriages and going through life and and children and business and career always in the back of your mind always in the back of your mind you have this one little thing that just keeps popping up and that was that one incredible moment where you fell in love instantly yeah it it happened to me i'm just gonna tell you you know this isn't a story about anybody else it's a story about me it happened to me i'm going to change the names i'm gonna change one of the names but i have a friend or real name jennifer cross well went to school with i mean we were you know some eighth grade we were good friends still are by the way you know that was a long time ago we're still good friends we can hide together we're just good friends and uh she called me up at my house i was living at home with mom and dad and my sister and our dog and she said i'm going to be at clearwater beach and i think you should ride your motorcycle out there and see us i said okay and she thought here's what she thought she thought that i had the hots for a girl named kathy kieran real name that's that's what jennifer thought and i said okay she was kathy's gonna be in the car okay that's nice but you know i just decided it was a summer night you know it was a balmy summer night and i drove out to clearwater beach and right there at pier 60 right there in her usual parking spot was jennifer and i got off my motorcycle and i you know i'm talking to jennifer and i look at kathy i said i got the heart you don't know and then over on the other side of the back seat was this girl not a real name we'll call her patricia was patricia now i had my eyes on patricia from a distance i thought i was totally out of her league i really did i thought i was totally out of her league you know losing status at the high school i thought i was totally out of this girl's league in high school we were in choir together i was a tenor she was an alto so she sat kind of right across from me in the chairs where we would all sing and i would look at her i would look at these incredible eyes at hers but again totally out of my league you know that's nice lots of girls were totally out of my league and what the hell does that mean but anyway one day we were out of the choir room and we were on the stage and i walked up to her and i just i just took all this nerve that i had i walked up to her and i gently touched her hand i think i may have held on to like two or three fingers and i looked at her in her eyes i stared right into her eyes and i said oh you idiot you you you idiot you you have gone where you should not have gone this girl is totally out of your league she wants nothing to do with you so i just said bye and went about my business well then there's that night at clearwater beach a long time after that you know i don't know how long maybe a year i don't know but patricia's in the back seat of the car and i'm talking to jennifer and i'm talking to kathy and and i forget who else was in the car there was somebody in the front seat of the car uh but i totally forgot who it was and i looked at patricia and again totally out of my league but you know what i had i had nerves of steel i said would you like to run down to the beach with me and she said to my surprise my total and complete utter surprise she said yes and she had to climb over kathy karen to get out of the car because it was a two-door thunderbird oh beautiful car but she had to climb over kathy karen and jennifer's looking at her climbing over kathy karen and she's and jennifer's thinking uh michael you're supposed to be here going after kathy karen but i wasn't i was going after patricia and i could not believe that she said yes and i took her hand and we literally ran down the side of pier 60 and i gotta tell you it was a moonlit night there were lights coming off of the pier the wind was gently you know blowing and i looked at her and she looked at me and i held both of her hands we were right in front of each other and i have no idea how i got the nerve to do this i have to this day i have absolutely no idea how i got the nerve to do this but i looked at those beautiful eyes at first and i said may i kiss you and i at this point you know back of my brain my brain works like nine million miles an hour and i'm thinking she's gonna say what the hell are you talking about and she just looks at me and she said absolutely and i wrapped my arms around her and i planted the best kiss i've ever given not that i'd given a lot of kisses but i made sure that it was the best damn kiss i'd ever given to anyone right there on her lips right there at clearwater beach right there next to pier 60 right there under the moon and in front of god and everybody i'm giving matricia this incredible kiss at which point there's all these little flutters going on in my heart and i'm looking at her and you know what i can see your heart man i can see them fluttering i can see the fluttering coming out of her and i grabbed her hand i said we gotta get back to jennifer and we ran back to jennifer and she climbed over kathy karen and again got in the back seat but she would not take her eyes off me i would not take my eyes off of her but i had to go and they had to go because it was a school night and you know that sort of thing and so i got on my honda 160 motorcycle and rode away absolutely falling in love now the rest i'm not going to bore you with i'll just briefly say we had a three-month tumultuous absolutely incredible relationship that because of me because i'm a dumbass ended and it ended very badly and i was not a nice person i was a bad person it's all my fault i'm taking total response and i knew this i knew this i absolutely knew this to be true and she went off to find her life and i went off to establish mine and we never saw each other again now sometimes i mean i always try to keep track of her i really guess i was called stalking but she was doing the same damn thing to me okay she would be in a relationship with somebody but she's keeping her eye on me she lived in i don't know you know kentucky or some tennessee some damn place and she's keeping track of me she lived in chicago we made a phone call when she lived in chicago and i sat in my parents' garage and talked to her for like an hour this was like years later again we never saw each other ever again after that then she just disappeared off the face of the earth she heard me doing radio okay as a matter of fact i did a pub i did a god this is sick i did a personal appearance at the nursery when i was doing gardening radio i did a nationally syndicated gardening show i did a personal appearance at the garden center where her husband worked i did not know this this all came to me later it's now 2023 those events happened much a lot more than 50 years ago yet still yet still right there in my little heart i'm looking at it right there there are flutters she was the one i blew it i totally blew it but she was the one and am i sad about that yes but here's what i am mostly about that mostly about that i'm so grateful that i was lucky enough to look into the eyes of this absolutely stunning woman who is way out of my league have her look back in my eyes and we connected and we fell in love and we were young and i have those memories that i will take with me forever wow that ever happen to you like most people are smarter than me they find that one they fall in love and they're together forever i got a lot of friends i went to high school with they've been married for i know one guy rick allen is his name he's hidden 50 years of being married to this beautiful wonderful woman because he fell in love and he was smarter than me my brother's been married for 50 years he fell in love with his wife and he's smarter than me he hung on he did the work i just have these absolutely wonderful memories and gratitude we'll see you tomorrow you