cannonball

I want to pull my hair out I want to kick the moon out of the sky I want to tear the sun down I want to cover up all the light I want to explode every atom inside my brain I want to corrode in the desert simply waste away I want to crash my car again but into my own place I want to burn everything and watch the smoke fade away I want to kill every thought that in my head I want to make you see the giant hole that you left I want to keep you from the horror I put in my life But I don't want to run these circles so I think I'll drive If you told me to dive into the sun I'll do a cannonball I'd rather have a pocket full of sunshine Than a chance in the dark Even my parents ask me why I'm having such a hard time with this They haven't seen me smile It's all because I miss You told me to dive into the sun So I'll do a cannonball I'd rather have a pocket full of sunshine Than a chance in the dark Even my parents ask me why I'm having such a hard time with this They haven't seen me smile It's because I miss you I want to pull my hair out And kick the moon out of the sky I want to take the sun down And crash my car (written 2022)