Christine V Davies on Anger at God, Healing, and Being Seen in Pain

In this episode of Spiritual Infinity, Zenzi Sewaah is joined by Christine V Davies, a Presbyterian minister, hospital chaplain, and spiritual director based in New Jersey. Together, they explore spirituality not as doctrine, but as lived presence—especially in moments of crisis, grief, anger, and profound uncertainty.Christine shares her deeply human journey into ministry, shaped by early faith, a diagnosis of epilepsy in her teens, years of navigating the medical system, and later experiences of miscarriage and loss. These experiences didn’t weaken her faith; they refined it. They led her away from a purely clinical view of care and toward a vocation centered on being with people in their suffering—rather than trying to fix it.As a hospital chaplain and leader of a chaplaincy program, Christine describes what it means to sit in liminal spaces: the back of an ambulance, trauma rooms, end-of-life bedsides, and waiting rooms filled with fear. She speaks openly about anger at God, the “why me” question, and spiritual distress—normalizing these experiences as part of an honest spiritual life rather than failures of faith.The conversation also explores Christine’s work as a spiritual director, supporting people who feel disconnected from religion, wounded by institutional faith, or longing for a deeper relationship with the Divine. She emphasizes that spirituality can be rooted in many pathways—nature, music, community, prayer, meditation—and that healing often begins with naming what we truly long for.This episode is a compassionate reminder that spirituality is not about having answers, but about accompaniment: showing up, listening deeply, and trusting that love is still present—even in the darkest valleys.Closing ThoughtSometimes healing doesn’t come from answers, but from presence. When we allow ourselves to be seen in our pain—and to ask for help—we discover that spirituality is not about avoiding suffering, but about not facing it alone.Guest Contact & Connection DetailsChristine V Davies* Website: https://christinevdavies.com* Services Offered:* Spiritual direction (one-to-one, primarily via Zoom)* Support around grief, spiritual distress, anger at God, and faith deconstruction* Writing: Regular contributor on Substack, writing on spirituality, grief, chaplaincy, and meaning-making* Directory Resource: https://spiritualdirectorsinternational.org* (to find spiritual directors worldwide) Get full access to Zenzi’s Substack at zenzisewaah.substack.com/subscribe