Clamoring for the light

Clamoring for the light Ugliness mixed together with deepest fears Sketchy and vague details all the same tears Wrap around what you can’t comprehend in full While demons in the dark paint horrors in your skull Deprivation madness hammering my head at night Leaves me sweating, heart racing, clamoring for the light Random texts, unconnected words leave doubt Mixed up messages but what’s it all about? Leaving me in the dust with a mouthful of regrets Pretty words and promises I guess she just forgets Deprivation madness hammering my head at night Leaves me sweating, heart racing, clamoring for the light Alone staring at the reflection of a dream not materialized A fantasy of long overdue smiles that were never realized Days hang in the closet, like those clothes that no longer fit Perhaps never to come off the hanger, yet you can’t part with it Deprivation madness hammering my head at night Leaves me sweating, heart racing, clamoring for the light But I’m in the dark Tim Windisch 05/01/2024