Conspiracy Fears - Isaiah 8:11

 I’ll finish reading the verse in a moment, but first we will pause here- every morning when I open my Bible, I don’t jump into it• but at the entrance to the Scriptures, I take a moment to slow my breath, and focus my attention◦ I bring awareness to God’s presence and let myself hear him say,“at the entrance of the tent of meeting before the LORD, where I will meet with you to speak to you there" (Ex. 29:42)• so before I even begin reading, I’m already listening to God◦ and there is always something in my reading worth writing◦ (though not necessarily worth sharing with others)- yesterday morning, when I began, I felt a familiar frustration• my desperate longing is to actually hear God,◦ for his voice to be so clearly in my brain, there’s no doubt I'm hearing him◦ anyway, the first words I read yesterday were, “And the LORD spoke to Moses . . . .”• normally, my eyes would have glided over that phrase,◦ especially because what follows is long and repetitious◦ anyway, reading the opening line, I may have felt a twinge of jealousy▫ but then, like from a small inner voice I heard, “See, I do speak to you. Wasn't this what you were just now thinking? Desiring?”