Day Zero Journal Entry 4

In this raw and deeply personal episode of The Story of Mud, we dive into the emotional chaos of Day Zero—the starting point of a new journey toward sobriety. After a week of mental struggle and slipping back into old habits, I reflect on the guilt, the fear, and the unwavering support of my children, who reminded me of something I had lost sight of: hope. Their words, "I believe in you" and "I'm counting on you," hit me harder than any drink ever could, forcing me to confront the inner voice of doubt that always seems to be lurking. I talk about the challenge of navigating weekends sober, the uncomfortable truth of feeling disconnected from who I used to be, and how even the things I once loved—like streaming and creating content—seem empty without alcohol. But today marks Day Zero, a fresh start. A small goal of two to four weeks of sobriety may not seem like much, but it's the first step in a much larger battle. Join me as I open up about the struggle, the doubt, and the hope that maybe, just maybe, this time will be different. If you’ve ever faced your own demons, this episode is for you. Together, we can take this one day at a time. Key Takeaways: The emotional weight of guilt after drinking Conversations with my children that brought hope and clarity The challenge of finding joy and identity without alcohol Setting small but meaningful goals for sobriety The importance of accountability and self-reflection Tune in, stay strong, and let’s face Day Zero together.