Delusional

"For me, personally, a mix has the most impact when it feels like I'm watching a movie. With ups, downs, some drama, sentiment, moment of joy, climax and anticlimax. And yes: tension and release." --- originally published on Ambientblog --- When I started working on this mix, its working title was Wonderlust, simply because I liked that word: a variation on wanderlust ('a desire to travel') which the Urban Dictionary describes as 'the desire to be in a constant state of wonder'.But as the mix progressed, the title didn't fit very well. There were too many dark and unsettling moments... moment that may evoke their own 'state of wonder' but of a completely different kind. The Questions in Anja Garbarek's track are crucial to this mix and gave it its title: a few simple questions to diagnose severe psychotic disorders, a delusional state of mind. There may be quite a few of these delusional moments in this mix, but they are alternated with moments of joy in an almost melodramatical equilibrium. More info on https://www.ambientblog.net/2019-01/delusional-mix/ Tracklist:(first time is the start time, time in brackets is the sample length) 00:00 (01:13) Angelo Badalamenti/City Of Prague Orchestra - Mulholland Drive ThemeMulholland Drive soundtrack, 2001, Milan 74321 89823 2 00:59 (00:59) Allesio Ballerini - WiwananaWiwanana OST, 2018, Fluid Audio 054 01:43 (01:49) Martin Ptak - StormRiver Tales, 2018, Col-Legno WWE 1CD 20441 01:57 (00:32) Goblin - Suspiria (Celesta & Bells)Suspiria OST, 1977/2012, Cinevox CD OST 702/s 02:30 (02:04) Jóhann Jóhannsson - Seeker Of The Serpents EyeMandy OST, 2018, Invada LSINV203CD 03:11 (02:57) Monty Adkins - Still Juniper Snow: Distant WatersBozzini+, 2018, Huddersfield Contemporary Records HCR19CD 05:38 (01:08) Anja Garbarek - QuestionsThe Road Is Just A Surface, 2018, Drabant Music, DM58LPPER 05:52 (03:17) Gryllus Ábris - Post_02Post_, 2017, Farbwechsel FARB026 08:01 (01:51) Autechre - Sinstrailab AirNTS Sessions 2, 2018, Warp Records WARPCD364 08:30 (02:31) Jessica Moss - Fractals (Truth 3)Entanglement, 2018, Constellation CST138 10:09 (01:58) Rudolf Eb.er - IshikiriOm Kult: Ritual Practice Of Conscious Dying- Vol. II, 2018, Om Kult OM-2 10:27 (00:25) Anja Garbarek - QuestionsThe Road Is Just A Surface, 2018, 11:05 (01:17) Ulnar - Daylight FireworksDreaming Of Sailing Further West, 2017, Colectivo Casa Amarela CCA003 11:41 (02:42) Jean C. Roche - Rancho GrandeBirds Of Venezuela, 1973/2018, Sub Rosa SR411LP 12:05 (03:08) Arve Henriksen - SanmyakuSakuteiki, 2001, Rune Grammofon RCD2021 14:12 (02:34) The Newton Brothers - Feel NothingThe Haunting Of Hill House OST, 2018, Wax Work Records 16:23 (02:22) Thomas Vaquié - EcumeEcume, 2016, Antivj Recordings 18:31 (02:56) From The Mouth Of The Sun & Seabuckthorn - Lesser StillWe Stayed The Path That Fell To Shadow, 2018, Lost Tribe Sound 21:21 (00:43) Maria W. Horn - AtropaKontrapoetik, 2018, XKatedral XK12 21:44 (01:35) Bass Communion - Drugged IV Reconstructions And Recycling (Bass Communion Remixed), 2003, Headphone Dust BCCD5 22:30 (03:07) Alea Saxophone Quartet - Arvo Pärt: SolfeggioArvo Pärt Anima, 2017, Col-Legno WWE 1CD 20437 24:52 (02:57) BJNilsen - Table Of HoursFocus Intensity Power, 2017, Moving Furniture Records MFR062 26:40 (04:06) Illuminine - Dear, Utopia (feat. Adam Bryanbaum Wiltzie)#3, 2018, Ferryhouse Productions FHP 42617 26:42 (01:27) Michael Fahres - Het Gesloten OgenblikGäbrik (music from the book by Marc Legendre), 2018, Vlaamse Onafhankelijke Stripgilde 29:33 (02:20) Mathieu St. Pierre - 23.0785729, 143.9554413 These Elephants, 2018, Se;f-released (Bandcamp) 30:46 (01:22) Janek Schaefer - To Row Against The TideWhat Light There Is Tells Us Nothing (For Robert Wyatt), 2018, Temporary Residence Limited TRR305 31:53 (01:05) Mothertape - Problem 4In Progress Vol. III, 2018, Centrum Sztuki Współczesnej "Łaźnia" 31:57 (01:54) Murcof - Chapitre VILost In Time, 2018, Glacial Movements Records GMO35 33:22 (02:16) Varg, Annamelina - Stonewall PoemNordic Flora Series Pt. 5 - Crush, 2018, Posh Isolation 209 33:52 (02:03) Ipek Gorgun - MilevaEcce Homo, 2018, Touch TO:106 34:45 (02:16) Hans Zimmer & Benjamin Wallfisch - RainBlade Runner 2049 OST, 2017, Epic 19075800852 36:11 (02:47) Machinefabriek - HangingEngel, 2018, Self-Released (Bandcamp) 37:44 (02:30) Adam Mankowski - Próba Dźwięki Z Offu, 2018, Attenuation Circuit ACU 1013 39:06 (03:35) Les Horribles Travailleurs - Keizersrande 4 (ft. Anja Kreysing)Off Track, 2018, Esc.Rec 62 40:53 (01:06) Rudolf Eb.Er - Licht (Unborn Light)Om Kult: Ritual Practices Of Conscious Dying - Vol. 1, 2018, Om Kult OM-1 41:32 (04:47) Claudio F. Baroni - Solo VIII-AirMotum, 2018, Unsounds 61U 41:40 (02:41) Ed Alp - RTPVCunreleased, 2009, private collection 44:31 (03:00) Monty Adkins - Still Juniper Snow: Spiral PathsBozzini+, 2018, Huddersfield Contemporary Records HCR19CD 47:02 (01:23) Minco Eggersman - Melisma & GurianKavkasia, 2017, Volkoren 73 47:30 (02:32) Jacob Lindhagen - KenopsiaPaces, 2017, 1631 Recordings FR1-015 49:14 (02:05) Jonty Harrison - Going Places (2015)Voyages, 2016, Empreintes DIGITALes IMED 16139 50:01 (01:18) Cadeu - Echoic VIIIEchoic, 2018, Esc.Rec 60 50:50 (02:50) Colin Stetson - Mothers & DaughtersHereditary OST, 2018, Milan M2-36952 53:35 (01:33) Jóhann Jóhannsson & BJ Nilsen - Carkeys (reversed)I Am Here OST, 2014, Ash International Ash 11.1 54:36 (01:13) Jon Hopkins - PrologueMonsters OST, 2010, Double Six DS036D 55:35 (04:07) Brian Eno & Metropole Orchestra - An Ending (arr. Dick Bakker)Shutov Assembly Live Paradiso, 1999, unreleased