Does the hate, ever stop?

When when you hear people say that others thrive off of chaos. This is a huge case of that matter. For whatever reasons, I am fully aware that I have been gang stopped, harassed, thought stalk, lied on, slander and God knows what else. But I do no that I am a fighter. Not the type of fighter that goes looking for fights and thrive off of chaos. That's not me. But the type of fighter that will give it her all no matter how many weapons, people try to form against me. The Lord is my shepherd and I shall not want,. I love the Lord and the lord loves me and people felt to realize that God sees every thing. Every every plot of the enemy, every secret meeting, every secret conversation, the death that took place.I mean God literally sees everything. But yet people will still try to play a position that is above God and take matters into their own hands, when the entire time the double fed them bait. Now don't get me wrong it can be painful you know especially when it's evolving your family and any kids that you love, trust trust trust I miss my nieces and nephews so much. But only if they knew how wicked their grandmother is and for years I protected her, when in all reality the woman that gave birth to me, was my biggest abuser. You would think that it would stop as a child, knowing I'm still Loving her helping her and willing to be in her life, at least 3 years ago. Sadly I have walked away and accepted that I just do not have supportive parents in the love was always false but no longer will allow them to control my life, no longer will I allow them to put me down and or abuse me because both parental figures was abusive. Mistakes I can forgive cuz we all make mistakes. But the things that were done to me since a child till this very day has been evil plots, calculated and all out of jealousy. it's crazy cuz the people that hated me the most had more than me. They just missed the point that it was never about material things or about my beauty it was my inner beauty and my protection from God that kept me. Even in My darkest hours I pray.