Downtown

First, Thank You to my readers and subscribers. This work continues with your support of Creativity as Practice for Mental Health. This is an offering for all, Consider Subscribing below. Coming Back to San Francisco for my residency with Intersection for the Arts, I had a daily writing practice. Every day over the Six months I was there I recounted the location I was in as a prompt for past experiences. These momentos could be a snapshot of how a place affects memory. One snapshot example of a “location-based narrative” told by a local artist, contently in a museum of his own life. (Press Play for the Audio Recorded at Intersection: 1446 Market., SF) DOWNTOWN I’m back here again, this time more stable Remembering coming down here when I was looking for all the wrong reasons All my theft and treachery. I was a drinking, smoking, street kid with an oversized backpack and nowhere to go Now my backpack is tastefully small. I don’t have to use the public computer at the wellness center I bring my laptop I don’t ride BART for free, I drive a car that I own and pay for parking It’s been six years since I used to come here, but I’ve changed. I shave now and get a haircut I’m medicated and under control. Less wild, formulating a career plan. The wellness center I used to go to is on 9th, now I’m a resident artist at a space on 11th. On my first day back I ran into the guy who used to run the wellness center, we recognized each other. He said, “You’re looking good.” It struck me, how I used to present; flipped up cap and wild eyes, sleeping in bus stops and in people’s garages I sleep on a luxury mattress now, in my own place. I don’t have to struggle like six years ago. My life is calm and full of meaningful friendships. I’m so much more balanced than I used to be. I was a recluse. I can tell you some stories of how I used to be But now I’m on the come up, recalibrating how many years I have left Taking my time, and playing the long game Instead of burnout. Thank You for reading, listening, and supporting this journey. One Step at a Time. This is the bonus stanza, cut from the audio. Makes a good wrap-up moment. I include it because I mean every word. I used to go to groups at the wellness center now I’m thinking of running my own, for artists who want to build something and collaborate with other like-minded people who want to make something of this town. I would like to build, rather than destroy. I am ready to grow into the next thing, One page at a time This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit madone.substack.com/subscribe