Dreading the New Year Doesn’t Mean You’re Failing

This episode is not about fresh starts, resolutions, or manifesting a better year.It’s for the people who feel heavy, uneasy, or scared as the year changes.I’m sharing honestly about what the end of the year felt like for me when my life didn’t feel safe—when I was still inside emotionally abusive relationships, even though I didn’t have that language yet. I talk about the dread that replaced reflection, the exhaustion of constant self-editing, the panic attacks, the private crying, the way I negotiated my own needs just to keep the peace.There are no tidy lessons here. This episode isn’t meant to inspire you to do more or be better.We talk about:Why New Year’s can feel threatening instead of hopeful when your life has felt unpredictable or unsafeHow emotional abuse intensifies during holidays and end-of-year reflectionThe slow realization of “I can’t keep living like this” and why that isn’t failureTrauma bonds, self-doubt, and the moment your body starts telling the truthWhy hope doesn’t have to be loud to be realIf the bravest thing you can do right now is stop gaslighting yourself, this episode is for you.Support the show*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your RelationshipWebsite: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.comInstagram: @emotionalabusecoachEmail: [email protected]{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner