Dreamscape Diaries: A Dream Continuity

Cycle 12 Day 14. Saturday, April 18th. It’s 05:47 in the morning.And I just woke up to a dream.So here’s another one of my dreamscape diaries.However, this dream I had in Swedish.And I’m pondering whether I therefore should speak Swedish now, but I think it doesn’t really matter.I’ll stick to English, because I don’t remember any exact quotes from the “movie”, I was about to say—it’s kind of like a movie, right, the dream.So I’ll stick to English for now.The SettingSo I’m in the dream.And I’m in this big kind of salon.It’s like a big manor house, estate, castle almost.Big rooms.Not epically tall ceilings, but yeah, kind of epically tall to the ceiling.And I’m in some kind of sitting area.I think there’s a buffet going on.So I have a plate of food, mixed types of foods that I brought.And I bring myself down to sit in this seating area.I might be on a couch or a chair with my food.Yeah, it’s probably in a kind of lounge group—like couches or armchairs or whatever.And I bring myself down to sit there.There are some people in the vicinity, which I don’t remember if I interacted with or not.But quite soon thereafter, a person comes along and he sits down further away to my left.If I look straight ahead, to the left side of me, there’s another armchair or something similar where he takes a seat.A Familiar FaceAnd I know this guy from before.It’s Gerard, an old friend of mine from high school that I haven’t stayed in touch with since.And I remember him as a funny guy.A really likable, personable guy.And the weird thing here is that in the dream, me and him were referring to the fact that we met a few months before.And now that I wake up, I’m pretty confident that this is not just something that I imagined inside of this one dream.I’m pretty confident that I’ve had a previous dream, which was around a few months before, where he featured.And we kind of talked about what I was experiencing in that previous dream.This is a thing I haven’t, at least consciously, experienced before.Or one could say you’re not conscious when dreaming.But yeah, you are conscious when you’re dreaming.It’s just that you’re fabulating.You’re fabricating these weaved patterns that don’t necessarily correspond very well to the reality you experience and act within once awake.But I’m pretty sure that what we were referring to in the talks we had in this dream I just woke up from actually referred to dream content that I had a few months back.And in the dream, we discussed it as if the last time we met was a few months back.A Loop Across DreamsI don’t remember all the details of our discussions.But I do remember that it centered around me having to face my own mortality, which he had seen.And we were discussing that.But then also, we discussed the mortality of his mother.Because in that prior dream a few months back, he had been opening up about the health of his mother.And I even met his mother in that other setting that was going on in that dream.This is crazy.I didn’t think this was even possible—to have these reconnecting loops.But seemingly, the previous dream must have consolidated in my memory, even though I don’t remember it actively.And now it was reactivated.So kind of like a subconscious memory—something that I cannot actively recall—but now it was recalled to me within this second dream.So I did, in the previous dream, meet his mother at a separate location.And she seemed quite frail.And we were talking about health.And it seemed clear that she was relating to my situation and I could relate to hers.I don’t remember if we talked about it word for word.And similarly, in this interaction in the dream I just had, we were kind of talking in riddles.I don’t know if it was because of the custom in this place, or just Gerard wanting to be polite or not too intrusive in what he was asking.But yeah, it was clear he wanted to reach out, and relate to me.And then I was asking about his mother, because I remembered meeting her.And I asked something like: okay, how is your mother?How is your mother holding on?And I looked to him and I saw him gradually break into tears.And his face was all red.And I was thinking to myself: should I go over and console him?Or should I say something?Yeah, I should go over and console him.And then I woke up.Trigger and ReflectionSo I do know that quite close before I was going to bed, I saw a Facebook story with Gerard in it.Because I have him added on Facebook, so I sometimes see his content.He was taking part in a march somewhere in southern Europe for game and wildlife preservation.Which I think is an interesting topic.It would be interesting to discuss with him as well, because it has many aspects to it.So that’s probably why he featured in the dream.But the craziest thing, though, is this loop.This re-referencing to a previous dream that I’m quite sure I had a few months ago, or a few weeks ago.And now this referencing showed up in this dream.But why not?I mean, it’s similar to when I, as seldom as I am nowadays, find myself in a situation with a Chinese-speaking person.I start speaking.And because I got fluent in Chinese at a relatively early age, and I went very deep into it when I was between 19 and 21 years old, it’s still with me.But it’s not necessarily something that I can just actively recall word for word.My active vocabulary is a bit of an unknown, because it comes jumping to me while speaking.If you would ask me: name as many nouns as you actively know in Chinese, I wouldn’t be able to pick out nearly as many as I would if I’m just using them in an active conversation.So there is such a thing as tacit knowledge.Tacit memory that is stored.And you don’t know if you can actively retrieve it until the time comes when you have to.ClosingYeah, those were my reflections around that dream.It’s six o’clock in the morning.So if I stop this recording now, I can probably get one or two hours more sleep, hopefully, which will be very much needed.I’m not going to open the Oura Ring app now, because then it’s going to think I woke up prematurely, even though I’m going back to sleep.So you’ll hear about my sleep quality some other time.But case in point: I’m going to stop the recording now and accumulate more hours of sleep, because I’m definitely in a sleep-debt situation since many days.Be mindful of your life force, fam.Namaste. 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