driving & thinking [prod. downtime]

I miss your love I miss your life I miss your love I miss your life I'm thinking 'bout all this shit every night I'm thinking 'bout all this shit every day and how I cannot hang on to feeling this way Sometimes I wake up, I'm feeling okay But sometimes I wake up, I wan' go away I'm feeling depraved I'm feeling afraid I'm feeling decayed I'm not feeling fine I lost it all in the blink of an eye Look in my eyes It do not shine Losing you felt like I'm losing a life Losing you felt like I went took a knife and proceeded to put inside of my spine Driving and thinking I'm driving and thinking I'm driving and thinking I'm crying, I'm sinking I miss you with me and having you clinging I miss the love that each other were bringing I miss the moments we had every evening I miss us being outside on the weekend Feel like my life had a purpose and meaning but I lost it all and myself is the reason What was I thinking? What was I thinking? What was I thinking? I wasn’t thinking I wasn't having a thought in my mind I wasn't thinking how it would unwind I was so focused on trying to rewind that I didn't show love to whats currently mine Now my heart broken and I am the why Searching for motive that I cannot find I wanna break out this cycle and life I'm suffocating, I'm feeling confined I'm confined with my sad thoughts My actions lead to all bad thoughts This not the shit my mom had taught Damn I knew better, fuck I thought that I could fix it (Made it worse) I can't dismiss it (Made it worse) I can't just rinse it (Made it worse) I gotta fix it (Don't make it worse) I hope that you still think 'bout us I hope that you might see 'bout us I hope you you'd still make reach 'bout us Cause girl I'd swim the seas 'bout us And girl I'd go and bleed 'bout us Ain't twice I gotta think 'bout us I hope love you still see out us Cause I know I do I know I do Want your left hand, want your "I do" Be the best man to you, got you Thinking 'bout you is something I cry to And thinking 'bout you is something I smile to Just like that song by Vanessa Carl; you're someone that I'd walk a thousand miles to I just wanna go and make it right at the very least, girl let me try to Yeah Lemme try- Lemme try-