E1: Crème de cassis; S7: Liberated Panties

This introduction is being written for Substack, which is a queer‑deaf place. Not hostile — just unable to hear the frequency queer people speak in. So I’m going to try to write something that will be legible to the queer‑deaf and also put them gently in their place. That’s what this introduction is for.And because “queer‑deaf” needs a definition, here’s the only one that makes sense:Queer‑deaf is when someone hears the sentence but not the slippage.It’s when you speak in parentheses inside parentheses inside a parenthetical multiverse, and they respond in the grammar of customer service.It’s when you leave the stratosphere, leave the universe, leave the multiverse, and go looking for God — and She’s sitting on a folding chair at the end of the Manhattan Beach Pier drinking crème de cassis and saying, “Oh honey, I heard you the whole time — they’re the ones who can’t.”That’s the audience.That’s the platform.That’s the vibe.But honestly, you should just listen to the podcast. Once you start, you won’t be able to stop. You won’t understand it with your “understanding.” You’ll understand it with your body.Season 7 is coming.The episode is coming.That’s the whole announcement.---PULL‑QUOTES: destabilizing queer situationsThese are direct pulls from the script — no rewriting — chosen because they show the kinds of queer danger, confusion, grooming, vulnerability, or existential dislocation that queer‑deaf readers would never register unless they listened to the episode.Each one is intentionally fragmentary.Each one destabilizes without needing to finish the thought.“Reading is eating someone else’s shit.”“My openly gay mentors were becoming flies. And then they dropped.”“Cute, blue-haired, popular, intelligent, infuriating disease vectors.”“I thought my badassery might change something for him. It didn’t.”“There was another world spinning inside of this one… or maybe not spinning, maybe it was just gagging on the other world.”“I became very vulnerable… to grooming.”“The thought police were your OWN thoughts.”“I didn’t mind not knowing what was going on.”“It’s really delicious… how disgusting it was.”“If you dated… it was just really hard to show any interest in the cute, vulnerable twenty-two year-old…”“The gang bang story was probably easier to tell.”“That is how I became an autodidact.”“Thoughts, in those days… they were all toxic.”“Reading was something you could do to maybe not have time to have sex with too many strangers…”“I really wanted something to mean something.”“The truth is ugly.”“Humanity is an industry.”“Honestly, I’ll take anywhere but here.”“No one is gay. Not even me.”“I thought I was being taken / but I was taking memory.”