E1: Queer Agnostic Mystic; S: Revolution 9 (Yes, it's a Beatles Reference, Because I Love that Yoko Broke Up the Band.)

This is not an episode you “understand.”It’s an episode you survive. And then twitch for a while as the warm breeze nonetheless brings you cooling as the moisture evaporates off your skin.If you’re reading this, all I can instruct you to do is find the courage to hit play.That’s it. I can’t offer anything more.It’s not a directive. You don’t have to hit play.There is no way to prepare you for what’s about to happen. If you do hit play.Headphones are suggested. Does anyone listen to anything any other way these days?There is no summary that would help. There is no transcript that could save you. You just have to step into the audioscape and let it take you.I built this piece like a pressure system:Analog synth cabaret, spoken-word intimacy, quantum metaphors, queer lineage, trickster logic, and a monologue delivered at the fastest speed human comprehension can tolerate. Every pause removed. Every breath weaponized. Meaning becomes a field instead of a message. You won’t catch it. You’re not supposed to.You’re going to lose the plot.You’re going to lose your footing.You’re going to lose your certainty.That’s the point.And when it’s over, you might need a place to land.So I made you a decompression chamber: a NotebookLM Deep Dive podcast — a woman and a man talking through what you just experienced, slowly, gently, with actual pauses between words. You can listen to it afterward to ground yourself. Or before, if you want to walk into the episode with a flashlight. It’s only available on Substack. Or, as I like to call it: SubSmack. That one needs a safe word.I wrote the episode, so I honestly have no idea what listening to the Deep Dive first will do to you.But it’s there for you.A place to sit with the material instead of having it firehosed at your face.Now go.Hit play. On the NotebookLM Deep Dive, if you want.You already listened to the episode. Or you’re planning to. Or you just have some time to kill. Without it waterboarding you. And your time.Wanna trick your friends with a treat? Because it’s ALMOST Halloween! It always is. Even though Tim Curry is… well, he is still alive. Amazing. So is Marc Almond. Share! Don't be greedy. There's way too much to go around.