E146 - Kerri McKinney - Co-Author of Depression Lied To Me - Thriving After Alcoholism

EPISODE 146 - Kerri McKinney - Co-Author of Depression Lied To Me - Thriving After AlcoholismI used to be that girl. The girl who was easily angered and bothered by even the littlest of things. The girl who was jealous of everyone else and compared herself to every woman who walked by. The girl who relied on every single person besides herself to make her feel validated and happy. I thought it was everyone elses’ responsibility to make me feel loved and I immediately blamed others for any negative emotion that would start to take me over. I had zero understanding or awareness as to how to control my big emotions and how to not let my feelings define who I was. I lived with awful body-image issues for most of my life and tried every different diet pill I could get my hands on - I always avoided staring at myself in the mirror. I suffered from extreme codependency and discovered alcohol at the young age of 12, which I quickly learned helped me to avoid feeling anything I didn’t want to feel (which was a lot). I was ashamed about much from my past and tried hard to create the exact persona of who I thought others wanted me to be. I was constantly depressed, filled with anxiety and always doing whatever anyone else thought I should do or what I thought others wanted me to do to get them to appreciate me and make me feel valued.https://www.kerrimckinney.com/___https://livingthenextchapter.com/podcast produced by: https://truemediasolutions.ca/Support the show___https://livingthenextchapter.com/podcast produced by: https://truemediasolutions.ca/Coffee Refills are always appreciated, refill Dave's cup here, and thanks!https://buymeacoffee.com/truemediaca