Ep. 10: Monetizing Vulnerability

Hi friend - I’m back. Back from months of really feeling like I couldn’t. Couldn’t be in the industry I’ve spent years breaking into. Couldn’t post on Instagram. Couldn’t tell the truth about what was going on, but couldn’t lie behind filters or gaslighting myself into believing it was all okay anymore. But here’s the thing about my experience of depression: I don’t know when I’ll be back in the hole. I don’t know what will prompt it, or where I’ll be, or how long it will last. I don’t know how well I’ll be able to function, or if I’ll be able to keep “showing up” online. I don’t know if I’ll manage to convince myself to get out of bed, record the podcast, send the email, do the dishes, make the bed. It’s scary not knowing. It’s scary running a business that depends on me when I live alongside my struggles with anxiety, depression, PTSD. And the only true antidote I’ve found is to be gentle. Gentle with starting again. Like easing into water when you’re not quite sure how cold it will be. First a toe. Then a foot. Two feet. Ankles. Up to the knees. Slow but steady. Because slow may not be as sexy as fast, but it is so much more sustainable.