EP 108: My Story: Part 15: When The Church Staff Doesn’t Like You

Welcome back to My Story series on the podcast. This week I recall the good, the bad, and the ugly about the time I was on staff at a church. I hated the politics, the backbiting, gossip, and legalism that went on behind the scenes. I explain why I haven't been to a ladies retreat in 15 years and the times I was being traumatized on Sunday mornings before I got up to sing. In the midst of it all, I had to pretend that everything was perfect at home. At the end of the podcast, I feature my new song, O Divin Redempteur, so be sure to listen until the end. Transcript below! Song: Repentir, O Divin Redempteur composed by Charles Gounod. Arrangement and orchestration by Diana Winkler. Pianist Paul Ross. Produced by Brian Winkler at Winkler Creative Studios. Available for download and purchase here: Repentir, O Divin Redempteur MP3 | DSW Ministries Link Tree Website: https://dswministries.org Email: [email protected] Social media links: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DSW-Ministries-230135337033879 Twitter: https://twitter.com/DswMinistries YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxgIpWVQCmjqog0PMK4khDw/playlists Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/dswministries/ https://dswministries.orgsubscribe-to-podcast/ Available on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, iHeart Radio, Google Podcasts, Pandora, Stitcher, Listen Notes Keep in touch with me! Email subscribe to get my handpicked list of the best resources for abuse survivors! https://thoughtful-composer-4268.ck.page #abuse #trauma Mentoring https://youtu.be/WWgkERpkIoY An easy way to help my ministry: https://dswministries.orgproduct/buy-me-a-cup-of-tea/ A donation link: https://dswministries.orgdonate/ Affiliate links: Can’t travel to The Holy Land right now? The next best thing is Walking The Bible Lands! Get a free video sample of the Bible lands here! https://www.walkingthebiblelands.com/a/18410/hN8u6LQP Get one free month of Blubrry podcast hosting with the promotional code: FAITHFUL http://create.blubrry.com/resources/podcast-media-hosting/?code=FAITHFUL Get quality podcast guests and interviews from PodMatch! Get paid to be a host! Sign up below: https://podmatch.com/signup/faithful Visit my friends at the Heal Thrive Dream Boutique for some cool T-shirts, jewelry and other merch! Simply share the discount code we created just for you and receive a 10% discount on your order!  DIANA98825  https://www.htd-boutique.com/ Bible Study Notebook From Karen Robinson! Check it out! https://www.htd-boutique.com/products/bible-planner-for-survivors-includes-prayer-requests-sermon-notes-bible-study-notes-and-other-note-pages-to-enrich-your-spiritual-life Full Transcript: Hi everyone. Welcome back to the podcast. Continuing with my story today. This is part 15, so if you haven't heard the rest of my story, you might be missing some really important relevant events. So go back and listen to previous episodes. They're all labeled "My Story" and they are numbered in order.I did cover my childhood abuse by a school counselor, high school years, in college, getting saved, getting called into the ministry, et cetera. If you don't wanna listen to all of them, I would say go back to, at least when I started dating my ex. To get an accurate picture of where I'm at right now.When telling your story, it is really challenging to put the events together, what to leave out. It's also really hard to relive these memories and describe them the way that they happen to me. That's pretty typical for a survivor. We all have our different stories. They are all valid. Some are more severe than others, but unless you've experienced certain things like gaslighting, manipulation, and emotional abuse, you don't realize how hard it is to set the scene with all its complicatedtwists and turns and miscellaneous tidbits that drive you nuts, but you don't know how to fit it into the narrative.